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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I'm feeling pretty uncomfortable and irritated and angry and anxious and annoyed with a lot of things these few days. Some are explainable, some aren't.

[I know i sound whiny but i'm a girl and therefore still have moodswings no matter what and blogging is one way to release all this.. negative energy.]

So right now i'll probably explain some of the explainable things:

1) Time flies too damn fast.

Seriously. I mean just look, it's bloody half of November gone already. And it only feels like one day.We only have one and a half months left to a new year.

And that means a really great change in me. Because:

[a] i'll be deleting this blog.
[b] i must study three times harder, or even more.
[c] i might be slimmer, because i made a vow to lose at least 3kg-5kg this hols.
**[d] i must have more faith in God.
[e] I might, or might NOT [which is going to suck really badly if not] make new friends. It's not a bad thing to make new friends but i'm just scared if i don't la k.

2) I realise how hard it is going to be for me to change.

[a]Deleting a blog is going to be really tough for me. Because i already have sentimental attachment to blogging. And sometimes when i'm waiting at a bus stop or whatever, that's when i start thinking about what i blog about for the day. So i'm pretty used to thinking..a lot. [Sometimes till i even get headaches.]

Next year, the only important thing which i should be thinking about is what i would be studying for the day.

[b] Studying is fun in a sense that you will know more about the specific chapter than your friends. But it's also stressful and requires lots of determination, *time management, *planning, and *discipline.

[the * is for the ones that i'm really weak at which is most of them. -___-]

Plus, if i get into triple science, i'll be amongst the top 20% of the cohort and it will be a damn friggin hard struggle to keep up. >=O

I'll probably be lowest in class, that's for sure -.-

[c] Well. I said i MIGHT be slimmer. Not necessarily. But fitting in an exercise routine during the holidays is hard enough, believe me.

And i realise i have to lose 15kg now to be actually called slim. Eurgh. Annoying.

The only good news when it comes to my weight, is that i didn't gain any weight during fasting month. YAY. [usually i do so this is quite an achievement for me. XD]

[d] This is damn important. Coz without faith in God i can't do anything.

[e] I think the first impression people have on me is proud.

Because well, i look proud. O.o

No actually i don't. I look like a lost sheep. [according to many people HAHA.]

But anyway, on the first day of school in tkgs, yi sze said she thought i was those kinds of proud-rich-bitchy type of people until we started talking. I asked her why and she said because my pencilbox is huge HAAAAA,HAHAHAHAHA.

huge pencilbox ftw! [ftw is fuck the what in short form. created by shahrin. heeho smart thinking rin.]

So in order for people not to think i'm proud, i should:

Introduce myself first instead of waiting for someone else to do so.
CARRY A SMALL REGULAR PENCILBOX. This is the hard part haha. [pshh i love all my pens! And have three pencil boxes of them. ._.]

3) I miss Ramadhan and Hari Raya! Even though both sucked. [Ramadhan went wayyeee to fast because of the exams, and Hari Raya just sucked fullstop.]

If you hadn't noticed, Hari Raya ends next week. )':

4) Shahirah, i really didn't mean any offense in what i said in your tagboard/feffe's happyboggart tagboard, but you've got to do something about your lack of seriousness. Because sometimes, it becomes too much. And irritate serious people.

5) I'M ANXIOUS ABOUT RESULTS RESULTS RESULTS!

Although thank goodness i've mentally prepared myself for not getting into triple science. If i don't, grovelling [appealling] it is.

Ok so that's about it. Well, no. There's some more. But they are the unexplainable ones. So g'day. And g'luck for your results! :]

twisting beside myself @9:31 AM

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