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Sunday, November 19, 2006

So,

16/11/2006

Couldn't sleep no matter how much i tried the previous night, so in the end i slept at 5am.

And woke up at 11am.

Turned my head to the right just to look at what time MCR will be interviewed on MTV on my alarm clock, and just as i was doing so, some part of my neck cracked.

So, the first thing in the morning was that i had a bloody muscle pull in my neck.

Was groaning all the way to the TV and watched MCR being interviewed.

Gerard way is soooo purtyyy :D

Then, i proceeded to play the computer.

Chatted with shahirah for a while.

Then i went back to my room to take a bath. Came out of the toilet and realised i had gotten a new message. Checked, and it was from Shahirah saying that the class allocation had been carried out and that the results were posted on the website.

Prayed before going into the website and checked my name.

And true enough, i didn't get into triple science.

Started crying like shit and calling everyone who cares about me to tell them. And FELT like shit because i had really, really wanted triple science.

So, before appealing, i discussed it with my parents, my uncle and my grandmother. All agreed that this combination i was allocated to was quite okay. Besides, i suck in physics anyway.

By night time, it was confirmed that the results of my combination was okay. However, i still got my parents to appeal the next morning.

I played the computer again and was chatting with a lot of people on MSN.

Why does it still sting, reading people's nicknames saying they have gotten into triple science?

A lot of people asked me why i want to get into triple science. Truth is, i don't know, people.

It's not for the glory of just getting in and pretending i'm as smart as the top 20% of the cohort.

If you knew me well enough, you should realise that i'm SO not that type.

I think it's because i just want to prove to my parents that i'm not a loser and that even though i have 9 subjects to take, i can score in each and every one of them. For once, i just need to feel that satisfaction that i've done something useful in life and made some people happy.

Besides, i've already mentioned that i'm deleting my blog. Wouldn't that give me enough time to study all those subjects?

But at the same time, there are no people whom i am close with in the triple science classes. My mother told me that it is better this way and that i can make friends and mix with all these smart people to push me to do better.

In the combination i have right now, which is B6, I have some close friends. I think i'm going to have fun with the sciences [pure chem& bio] and i love history and literature. Even though it's hard to score in both, especially since it's CORE history and literature is just hard to score period.

But, there are so far three people i know who want to get into my class. If i can just appeal for triple science and get in, these people will have already one vacancy....

Besides. There are not only friends whom i am close with in this class, but also people who are rather... awkward. I think heeqmah and kapoor should know what i'm talking about.

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Garhhh. If only things would have turned out differently this year....

Anyway, for the benefit of those who want B6, i have appealed for triple science! Although, i'm not sure and i know i probably won't get in. :
But anyway, if i don't get in, at least i won't have to suffer for physics. Physics is a bitch. And i'm not about to take bitchy subjects for the O's.

But if i don't take physics in secondary school, that means i can't take physics in JC...

ARGHHHH! SO CONFUSING AND ANNOYING AND ARGHHHH IF ONLY I HAD KNOWN WASTING MY TIME ON THE COMPUTER WOULD CAUSE THIS.

I hate, yet love blogging.

But seeing all those empty assessment books, i know now how much time i have wasted. And how much money too.

I'm deleting my blog. And friendster. Soon enough.

twisting beside myself @3:11 AM

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