WILKOMMEN
:3
Bill Kaulitz is teh seks. <3
I also wish for world peace, end of poverty,happiness and justice for everyone. :]
Well, i'm back from malaysia! Hurray.
No actually i was back at about 11.45pm on the 28th, but i can't be bothered/am too busy to update.
Running errands and last minute packing for school and such. :
And yes, i actually cannot be bothered to blog. Like i know you all are waiting for me to blog and all but i can't be bothered to switch on the computer and wait for 5 minutes for it to load and go online and blog and all that nonsense.
:D
this is actually great news, because i actually happen to have goals next year. To do well and all that.
Main focus: God & studies. Computer and other distractions ASIDE. hurray. XD
uhm. okay. uh.
shall be updating slowly about malaysia. i just don't feel like doing so right now. and sorry, shall tag your blogs hopefully tomorrow or the day after. toooo much to catch up lah. lol.
anyway,
ONE - About you
+ Known as: Nadiah/Nade
+ Born: 15/12/1992
SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER
+ Fallen off the bed?: yes. retarded and painful. -_-
+ Broken someone else's heart?: i think so. well either i didn't mean to and sorry, or you deserved it, so there.
+ Had your heart broken?: sort of.
+ Had a dream come true?: nah.
SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...
+ Wearing: batik! haha. no seriously, batik dress. the $5 kind that you can find in geylang that kind, you know.ok no i don't think it's batik but whatever. [so long winded. -__-]
+ Listening to: Stolen-Dashboard Confessional.
+ Chatting with: nobody.
SECTION 4 - DO YOU...
+ Have any piercings: three ^_^
+ Drive: i drove go-cart cars a few times, as well as bumper cars in amusement parks. (:
+ Drink: hell yeah. a LOT. waterrrr.
+ Have a cell phone: yes.
SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged: grandmother.
+ Talked with on the phone: some woman asking me if i have claimed a black top from ebase, which i have.
+ Text: aisyah.
SECTION 7- FAVORITES
+ Show: MTV things.
+ Food : CHOCOLATEE! ooh and my grandmother's deng deng, hmm yummay.
+ Color: PINK/black [>=D to bibah]
SECTION 8 - DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs: yeahhh :D
+ Like to walk in the rain: HELL YEAH.well,actually depends on how heavy it is la.haha.
+ Prefer black or blue: black is hurray.
+ Sleep on your side: yeap.
+ Have stuffed animals: i happen to have a hawt teddy whom i sleep with everyday. [and i'm still a virgin so don't think gross things.]
SECTION 9- This Or That..(pick)
+ Pierced nose or tongue: BOTH. but dad will pull my tongue out and tie a string around my nose piercing and pull. [bak pepatah seperti lembu dicucuk hidung. -_______-]
+ MTV or BET: mtv.
+ 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: neither.
+ Chocolate or flowers: chocolate!<3<3<3
+ Colored or black-and-white photo: black and white. emo man.
+ Stay up late or sleep in: stay up late! :D
+ Hot or cold: ok temperature? too hot is eww, too cold is brr so yeah middle hum (:
+ Sun or moon: both!
+ Left or Right: left. feels emo.
+ Spring or Fall: it doesn't matter since s'pore experiences neither -_- <-hahaha yeah.
+ Happy or sad: well, right now i'm not in a very good mood so no comment. but i love to be happy though. fun. :D
+ Wonder or amazement: both! heeho.
SECTION 10: FIRSTS.
+ First piercing/tattoo: ears.
+ First crush: kindergaten dude. forgot his name, lmao.
SECTION 11: LASTS.
+ Last time you cried: i don't feel like talking about it. (:
+ Last phone call: just now, but it was missed coz i was scrubbing my massive body in the toilet, taking a bath. pfft.
SECTION 12: CURRENT.
Current mood: nothing really. oh and a bit of angst.
Current food: not eating anythg now.
Current annoyance(s): well. i hate the fact that my mother loves to run down whatever i like. shall tell you more later.
SECTION 13: WHO LAST...
1. Made you smile: nobody i can recall. -_-
2. Made you cry: well, me. coz i felt guilty about something. don't feel like talking about it!
SECTION 14: WOULD YOU RATHER..
1. Be serious or be funny?: most of the time funny, but i'm serious when the situation needs it.
2. Drink whole or skim milk?: skim, it is less fattening. but i'm not being true to myself [AGAIN] because i love whole milk. chocolate milk = <3
3. Spend time with your parents or enemy?: actually, enemy. more interesting. just hate those awkward tensions though.
SECTION 15: DO YOU PREFER...
1. Do you prefer gray or black?: black! but gray is nice too.
2. Lust or love?: a little bit of both. though muccchhh more love. lust is nonsense. well, quite. anyway nobody will want to get married to me, will they? haha.
3. Sunrise or sunset?: SUNSET! they are so beautiful that they make me sad. it's a very strange feeling, seeing something so beautiful that they make you sad. but it happens.
4. M&M's or skittles?: m&m's! chocolate is nicer than candy purlease
SECTION 16: ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Do you like anyone right now?: nope. like i said, nobody'll want to marry me, so what's the point huh?
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?: nope. i just realise now after kapoor and i had a two-hour chat yesterday on the phone. love at first sight is bloody nonsense. it only means their looks and not their personality, doesn't it? you can't SEE their personality through their face! unless they smile or whatever. but most of the time it's looks.
Judging a book by its cover is bullshit. Yet we all do it. It's sad, you know. Basing your self-esteem slowly on looks is extremely shallow. And it's funny how we all hate this fact yet live with it every single day of our lives.
And the world is unfair. 'Beauty' is what the media potrays it to be. Beautiful features and such. Pushing young and innocent teenage girls to the edge of insanity. Bullimia [sp?], anorexia, plastic surgery, etc.
To me, beauty comes from within. You can be gorgeous but have a fucked up attitude. Then you're ugly, aren't you?
So, point of all this is that, love at first sight is bullshit. you think this guy's cute, and he might think the same, then you start eyeing each other discreetly, and before you know it you're in bed? gross. love at first getting-to-know-each-other i understand. but first SIGHT, no. sight=looks only=fritter bullshit.
{bare with me, all this for that question about love at first sight is merely a summary of what would otherwise be a loooong post about people's perception on beauty nowadays.}
3. Do you fall for the wrong guy or girl?: haiz. you have NO idea.
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updating about other stuffs hopefully tomorrow. have a good life, people. (:
twisting beside myself @4:18 PM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
TAG REPLIES!
14 Dec 06, 23:35 HeQie: Love ya girl haha....muackzzz....i'll be leaving for england....on 21st....insya'allah....love ya.....bye
15 Dec 06, 00:25 HeQie: OMG...just went thru ur entries and u guys are gonna read...TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD???? OMG my favourite book...i love it and it's SUPER sad.....y'know me.....I am a HIPHOP queen so i feel for all
15 Dec 06, 00:26 HeQie: african//american//black ppl.....haha....its a wonderful BOOK!!!
Reply: OOOOH GOOD LUCK IN ENGLAND! and Insya Allah you'll
And HAHAHA THE HIP HOP THING'S CUTEEEEEEEE, and helloeee i'm black too so i feel angst for all the black people who have been mistreated by society and BOYS just because of their skin colour. I mean we're black doesn't mean we don't have feelings right? Stupid racist mother effin people who think black people suck. >=[
HURRAY! it's a wonderful book you say? then i shall try to finish before term starts. Anyway GOOD LUCK IN IP! ALL THE BEST! I hope you can cope with the work, i heard it's sec 3 & sec 4& JC stuff all crammed into one, so all the best!
15 Dec 06, 10:40 ain: Hello ma'am!Thanks for tagging my blog but sometimes I can't do the same to you,maybe cause you tag too darn much until I forgot what you said!
15 Dec 06, 10:41 ain: Also,yes I think that vampires are smexy but Gee just scares me kay.And he scares me so much that I think that person on your blog there is Gee...Seriously.
15 Dec 06, 10:44 ain: ANND HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!!I hope that RyRo will brighten up your room walls.(Maybe Brendon too.): DDD
15 Dec 06, 10:46 ain: OH and that tag too darn much is A GOOD thing.Yes,it makes me happy that someones takes the effort to tag.How about you?Are you happy??
15 Dec 06, 10:48 ain: I hope you are cos I like people to be happy!
Reply: Nyahaha, don't worry i've got over that 'being angry for people who don't tag' thing. It's stupid and petty of me, so don't worry. (:
And sorry for tagging too much, i'm just a loud person by nature [ask all the people who've rolled their eyes in malay class] so i always have lots of opinions and the only way to express them is of course, tagging. So don't be bothered about my tags. :D
WHY DA HECK DOES GEE SCARE YOU?? THAT GUY IS SO HOT THAT
:O
and the person in my blog is hawt, i think she's a girl but i'm not sure. Anyway nowadays i find emo people quite hard to tell apart. Some are so pretty but they're boys, others are so hot but they're girls. -_-
and heeeho! thanks for the birthday greeting! =D i'm 14 by the way. And the poster you gave me, pfft, the rain made it sorta crumpled and all. Tried to iron but meh. Didn't work. So it's a crumple poster, sorry! X(
Nevertheless, it will still brighten up my room walls,and thanks a LOT for the poster :D
LOL yeah i am happy when you make an effort to tag, and you cutee! As in, the last tag where you said "I hope you are cos I like people to be happy!". thankss! i love making people happy too, and yeah i was happy and touched when you said that yayee :D
15 Dec 06, 12:53 maryam: HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY! =D
Reply: THANKSS! ^_^
15 Dec 06, 13:20 rin: OMG LIEK HAPPY BURFDAE TO U
Reply: THANK YOO! what's with the act-cute typing thing huh. lol.
15 Dec 06, 20:18 HeQie: Happy Birthdaygirll....May ALLAH swt bless you inside out and may HE bless you with ALLL the GOOD friends you'll ever NEED!!!!
Reply: HAHAHA, HAHA YOU CUTEEEE! 'bless you inside out' HAHA! and yayiee thank you, Insya Allah. MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU TOO FOR YOUR TRIP TO ENGLAND, AND MAY HE LET YOU HUG THE ONE AND ONLY C.RONALDO
:D
ANYWAY THANK YOU AND I SHALL MISS YOU WHEN YOU GO TO IP, WHY'D YOU HAVE TO GO TO IP HMM
):
15 Dec 06, 22:25 binkz: hapi bdae. hope d dispute btwn u n shasha stops n u guys make up. tc.
Reply: We made up already! Lol. thanks! anyway i'm really sorry for not being able to tag your blog, your dearest cousin hasn't relinked you yet and i have no flipping idea what your url is! ):
tc to you too :D
16 Dec 06, 01:30 kapoor: hi. im tagging but i really dont know what to tag so bye.
16 Dec 06, 01:32 kapoor: and heeqmah is cute! AHHAX!
Reply: Wth to your first tag. -_- AND YAH, HEEQMAH CUTE ABOUT THE BLACK THING AND THE GOD BLESS YOU INSIDE OUT THING =D
16 Dec 06, 04:01 matt: 14..uhm..long way to go..so u can choose ur path earlier..=p
16 Dec 06, 04:02 matt: *its still early,u can choose ur path wisely.* im drunk. -_-
Reply: Long way to go to..? My death..? Hahaha. and you're drunk??? MASYA ALLAH YOU DRINK?? AIYO, AIYO DOSA AIYOOO =O
16 Dec 06, 17:16 feffe: eh! that taking back sunday song is cute! lol
16 Dec 06, 17:17 feffe: wow who IS that moronic moronic malicious person? =O just take it lightly, as you can see, there are other people who do care bout your bdae:D
16 Dec 06, 17:17 feffe: AND LMAO TO THAT ARROGANT SENIORS THING! HAHAHAHHA SO CUTE
16 Dec 06, 17:18 feffe: and i love the pictures of mikey and gee. hawt. mikey's so hoooooooot gosh
Reply: YAYEE YES, SET PHASERS TO THE STUN IS CUTE, ESPECIALLY THE SAY YES PART =D
and i don't want to talk about moronic people lah, get dosa only. -_-
and that senior thing wasn't cute, it was stupidly going off point about what my post is about,lollll
HEYYY GEE'S HOTTER THAN MIKEY. but why WHYY did he have to dye his hair blonde? BLACK NICE ):
16 Dec 06, 18:08 HeQie: what's so cute.......Kapoor....stopp shitting.....GET A JAMBAN......and....SHASHA.........buy handphone isit??? what MODEL??!!!! hahahaha.........
Reply: shasha is a cute nice nickname for kapoor! and heeho i don't think she got her handphone coz her mum angry with her that day <=O
but anyway, it's okay. she still will get other presents for her birthday. (:
17 Dec 06, 13:24 feffe: HAHAHHAHAHA THAT POST WAS SO HAWT LMAO
17 Dec 06, 13:25 feffe: i love the D: D:<>
17 Dec 06, 13:40 feffe: oh andddd, i actually think you shouldn't delete your blog ]:
17 Dec 06, 13:41 feffe: because it's like, when you get old, you can always look back and see what your past life was like, i mean isn't that sweet
17 Dec 06, 13:41 feffe: :D
Reply: YEAHH THE PEOPLE HOTTTT ):
but they're girls. -_-
and heehaw, the D: thing was copied todallie from you, hurray to cute people like feffe! :D
AND YOU CUTEEEEEEEEE! HAHA WHAT KIND OF GRANDMOTHER SURFS THE WEB WHEN SHE'S ON HER DEATHBED HMMM
hahaha cute lah.
anyway, good news, i'm not deleting this blog. just the tagboard. (:
18 Dec 06, 01:46 kapoor: well, my mum made up to me by buying me flowers. but then, i got angry again and im talking to her. THE CYCLE CONTINUES MAN!
18 Dec 06, 01:47 kapoor: and guess what, i think I need to delete my blog too but then, why cant we just IGNORE our blogs so if we ever feel the urge to, we shall blog!
18 Dec 06, 01:48 kapoor: and rawr to that girl/guy who is actually the other way round! i actually like gays!! as in, man who like man? yeah, coz their hotter than a straight guy
Reply: What the hell!! your mum made up to you and you're still angry! get over it laa! or is it about another thing? pfft what only lah you.
and i'm not deleting, yay! just ignoring. anyway i'd be dead if i even touch the comp next year, what more blog.
and yeah, rawr to that hot girl -_- GAYS ARE HOTTT!!! HOTTER THAN STRAIGHT GUYS! LIKE, ALMOST ALL OF THEM LAA. i think the only reason they're gay is because they are all so attractive and hawt that they start having feelings for each other -_____-
that's why i just pray that my GERARD WAY isn't gay. ):
18 Dec 06, 10:27 nadia: eh u betol-betol nak delete ke?
18 Dec 06, 10:27 nadia: i think tak payah lar.. as long as u can organise your tiime well(:
18 Dec 06, 10:28 nadia: btw, did u receive my mms. i wish u happy bday tau!
Reply: nah not delete the whole blog lah. just the tagboard. and the only reason why i thought of deleting is coz i can't organise my time well! pfft.
and oomgosh i'm sorry i didn't know! and i didn't receive that MMS ): anyway thanks a lot for the birthday greeting! =D
18 Dec 06, 15:24 kapoor: hey, im starting a magazine which is ahbeng-free. ahaha, its gonna be all about actors, footballers, SINGERS! ahah, its just my idea gone busuk. im just bored.
Reply: HURRAY I START WITH YOU K? =D and what only your idea ISN'T BUSUK >=O
18 Dec 06, 17:36 matt: haha. she is a boy.
Reply: I WISH. -_-"
18 Dec 06, 19:06 kapoor: u got the letter issit? OMG, i was soo scared coz i tot i will have to go to the lessons without any frens!
18 Dec 06, 19:07 kapoor: but im not sure IF we kena , coz they got put 'if the students are not identified....'
Reply: YEAHH ME TOO! i thought it was only for stupid people. -__- i mean, me not you. let's hope the whole sec 3 bachens have the remedials k? Coz seriously,having four remedial sessions a week= NO LIFE!
-_-
seriously about the identified thing? coool. i wouldn't want to waste my life at school any more after school hours with remedial.
19 Dec 06, 10:46 nadia: eh u;re irritated with me?
19 Dec 06, 10:46 nadia: someone told me that she read this person's tagboard and then u said- the person u're irritated with is nadia lamri.
19 Dec 06, 10:47 nadia: wad did i do?
Reply: OMG I'M SORRY! yeah i tagged about that in heeqmah's blog but i'm really, really sorry for not telling you earlier. Really. It's about that stupid tagging nonsense that i was angry with kapoor about for a while lah, so just forget it. I was being too petty and not-tolerant. Just forget it, really. Sorry. Anyway, thanks a LOT for directing me to the uniform shop! It really helped (:
19 Dec 06, 19:10kapoor: omg!! RAY'S KIDD PICTURE IS CUTE!! ahah,tell me about it when its just two weeks to 2007.
19 Dec 06, 19:10kapoor: ITS FREAKING 19TH DECEMBER!! i need more time to relax!!! and i drop u a testi since i was bored
Dec 06, 19:11kapoor: btw, WHAT DUH HELL DO U WANT FOR UR BIRTHDAY??!!
19 Dec 06, 19:11kapoor: i'll just buy u something for mini toons? ahaha, ok, tt's soo ah lian.. BB
Reply: HAHA YEAH RAY CUTE! last time so cute and innocent now bushy bushy hair. -_-
and thanks for the testi! yes, i think we all need more time to relax.
AND I DONT' KNOW WHAT I WANT LAH, ANYTHING! i'm not as picky as you. -_-
and minitoons cute, not ah lian. :D
19 Dec 06, 19:57 nadiah: why hello.
19 Dec 06, 20:06 nadiah: im the one who you think is cool
19 Dec 06, 20:06 nadiah: i think im cool too. nyahahaha
19 Dec 06, 20:10 nadiah: and about the class thing shahrin told you, not true. he was the one who did it to me.haha
Reply: HAHAHA. and the last tag, shahrin said it was nonsense and not true. lollll.
19 Dec 06, 21:10 matt: i think u have to face the fact - guys like mcr vocalist is gay..
19 Dec 06, 21:11 matt: "If you're gonna buy me a present, don't spend more than twenty five bucks, you'll get a blowjob anyway." <-CUTEEEEEEE! wat so cute?!
Reply: HE'S NOT GAY! and cute because he was kidding but it was so cutely said ^_^
don't understand what i'm saying? well, bottomline is that i think gerard way is cute. and hot. and sexy. hurray. <3
20 Dec 06, 02:01rin: gerard told me he was gay. i know. we share the same birthday. we have a mental connection. i asked him 2 seconds ago. =)
Reply: RIIIGGGHHHTTT. -_________________-"! AND STOP MAKING ME JEALOUS ABOUT HAVING THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS HIM LAA )':
20 Dec 06, 02:17 HeQie: kapoor..................I"M SURE THERE"S a 'SOMEONE'..................wahahahahaha...........i sooooooooooooooo UNDERSTAND.................it's so the BUSUK................wahahaha
20 Dec 06, 02:17 HeQie: Hi NADE...............................................
Reply: Huh? what someone? o.o
and i love your '.........................'s. very cool :D
Hi HEQIE..........................
*laughs like a retard*
20 Dec 06, 16:01 hanis: the king kong dude is jamie bell. he was in greenday's wake me up when september ends. really awesome. haha. anyway.. hello. hahaha
Reply: oh yeah i remembered yesterday. anyway thanks for telling me again! i think he's hawt, don't you? haha. and HELLO back to you! :D
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well, so i'm not deleting my blog. just the tagboard. So nobody will leave their comments and i won't be bothered to check. But that will only happen on the 31st of December. Because my mum just told me that we're coming back after christmas -_-
And tomorrow i'm leaving for Malaysia so goodbye people! ): But thta's only until the 26th or 27th, yay :D
see you soon, blue baboons ^_^
twisting beside myself @10:46 PM
YAYIEEE GUESS WHAT I FOUND!! =D
Gerard Arthur Way, born April 9, 1977 and hailing from Newark, New Jersey, is the lead singer of the band My Chemical Romance, brother to band mate Mikey Way (bass). When he lived in New Jersey, he used to stalk Christina Ricci, after finding out she lived nearby. He went to his first concert (Bruce Springsteen) with his mother, and once worked as a cart boy/bagger in a Grocery store. Gerard is 1/2 Italian (mother's side), and also 1/2 Scottish (father's side). Gerard's maternal grandmother Elena taught him how to draw, sing and perform. In the fourth grade, he starred in his school’s production of Peter Pan. He started to play in bands when he was only eleven. As a child, Gerard came to the revelation that everyone he cares about will eventually die, and that he will die alone. This has led to his current obsession with the idea of death.
Health
He has recently recovered from an addiction to drugs and alcohol, being sober as of August 2004, and visits a therapist when the band's not on tour. Gerard’s band mates have pulled him out of a deep depression twice (before the band really got started, and as he was sobering up). However, he still enjoys smoking Marlboro red cigarettes.
Art
He attended the School of Visual Arts in New York City and graduated with a Bachelor of Fine Arts in 1999. As a child, Gerard grew up in a dangerous and crime-ridden neighborhood. Way has said that he was never really allowed outside to play when he was younger. Instead, he remained indoors and created his own imaginary worlds in his head. This led to his later in life love for artwork. Gerard aspired to be a comic book artist (he loved comic books, and his favorite superhero was always Wolverine) before forming My Chemical Romance in 2001. He pitched a cartoon for Cartoon Network called "The Breakfast Monkey", but it sadly didn't work out. He considers himself a failed comic book artist yet has still done the artwork for the My Chemical Romance albums and used to design merchandise for the band "Thursday".
My Chemical Romance
On September 11th, 2001, Gerard was working in the comic industry of New York City. Witnessing the horrors of that day incited him to “do something with his life”. The song, “Skylines and Turnstiles” is based upon the terrorism attacks of 9/11, and is the first song to ever be written by My Chemical Romance. The band’s name is based upon an Irvine Welsh novel, and was first suggested by Gerard’s brother, Mikey. Together with Matt Pelissier, Ray Toro, Frank Iero, and Mikey Way, My Chemical Romance recorded their debut album. At their first show, Gerard and the rest of the band got very drunk because they were so nervous. Pelissier was later replaced by Bob Bryar. Gerard and his band mates hope to start working on their third album late 2006. They earned popularity with their hit single “I'm Not Okay (I Promise)” and later with a tribute to his late grandmother Elena Lee Rush, titled “Helena”. Gerard came up with the wardrobe ideas for the Helena video. Both songs are from their CD "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge". Their next two singles, in which they hope to get videos for, are “You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison”, with additional vocals of Bert McCracken from one of their "brother" bands The Used, along with their tragic loss song, “The Ghost of You”. The band has made several efforts for various causes such as the South Asian tsunami victims, and the fight against breast cancer. Despite the pictures of Gerard looking ghostly pale, he tans very well. The bulletproof vests they sometimes sport onstage represent where they grew up because the crime rate there was very high.
Makeup & Body Art
Way is known to wear heavy eye shadow during his band's concerts, but has been seen with a thick black strip along his eyes, during the Taste Of Chaos Tour 2005. He is deathly afraid of needles, so he doesn't have any piercings or tattoos. Nipple rings freak him out. Marilyn Manson has been quoted saying that he would kick Gerard’s ass if he ever got the chance for stealing his makeup style.
Discography & Lyrics
Way and his band released their first CD, I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love in 2002 and have released a CD titled Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge in June of 2004. Way is always trying to write new material, and he usually gets song ideas from the newspaper. He sees lyrics as a way of telling a story, and usually loves dark stuff "anything twisted, weird, and a little evil". The song, “Demolition Lovers”, is said to be about Gerard’s then girlfriend. <- YOU SEE I TOLD YOU HE WASN'T GAY!
Musical Influences & Tastes
Their musical influences include Iron Maiden, the Misfits, and David Bowie. He has undoubtedly confirmed that he thinks Brody Dalle from the Distillers is hot.
^That's brody dalle^
His favorite band is now Iron Maiden, but is still a David Bowie fan. He has been obsessed with revenge ever since he heard the Black Flag song 'Revenge'. He owns the same color Stratocasters as Billie Joe Armstrong (front man of the smash pop/punk trio Green Day).
Quotes
"If you don't go to high school you will definitely go to jail."
"I'd rather be a creature of the night than an old dude."
"So many people treat you like you're a kid so you might as well act like one and throw your television out of the hotel window"
"Be Yourself, Don't take anyone's shit and never let them take you alive..."
"So how was Christmas for you guys? Did you all get lots of nice black t-shirts?"
"If you're gonna buy me a present, don't spend more than twenty five bucks, you'll get a blowjob anyway." <-CUTEEEEEEE!
"Surrounding myself with fans makes me feel like I'm not going through it alone."
"The Devil got landed with a shitty job, he has to deal with assholes everyday, he's probably bored as hell."
"When I was writing it, I was remembering how hard it was to be a 16-year-old in high school. I always wanted to be an artist, so I was this loner kid who just got drunk all the time. I only had one real friend. There was a girl I really liked, and she ended up taking really sleazy photographs with her boyfriend, and that really crushed me, I was just swimming in this pit of despair, jealousy and alcoholism." <- HE ISN'T GAYYYYEEEEE :D
"It erases everything I hate about myself. Nothing can hurt me. I feel completely invincible. I feel like everyone else on that stage is invincible and we're capable of anything. There's no stopping us."
"I'd enjoy it if a guy grabbed my ass. I guess it all depends on how he grabbed it, too." <- uhm. HE'S NOT A GAY MAYBE HE WAS JOKINGG =D=D=D
"When you are kissing a guy with a beard, it's different." <- ......
"There's such a lack of sex in music" <- what the toot, i thought he wasn't horny. <.<
"It takes me a while to tell stories. I think it's because I was drunk for three years"
"I was this weird loner kid who got drunk by himself all the time." (talking about high school)
"I have a nihilistic attitude so it's like, the new gay... it's popular." (Gerard on why we should give a damn about MCR) <- he was prolly joking about the gay thing yayieee =D
"Look at me, with my pretty bracelet and tiara... I'm a fuckin' princess!" <-CUTEEEEEEEE!
"Were not a festival band, playing during the day was something we had to get over, I was like uhh this sun stuff kind of sucks"
"When we first started out I had a really big issue and a lot of my loved ones had a really big issue with the fact that I was totally in pain up there and there was a time when I tried to hurt myself off stage, but I got over that. Like, you should never want to hurt yourself. You should love yourself. Sometimes you have to kind of die inside in order to rise from your own ashes and believe in yourself and love yourself and become a new person and I think that that is going to be a lot of what the next record is about, not to plug it or anything. Like, it's going to talk about dying and coming back to become what you totally want to become. We are all becoming what we want to become." <- yeah, that's so true. (:
"What I Like about The Sims is that I don't have a normal life at all, so I play this game where these people have these really boring, mundane lives. It's fun. My Sims family is called the Cholly family. I don't know why I picked that name; it's kind of random. The teenage daughter is my favourite, because I just had her go through this Goth phase. She's really kind of nerdy and she just became a concert violinist, which is pretty huge for the family. And she got into private school. But she started wearing black lipstick and she dyed her hair purple. It's pretty huge."
"I went to school in drag, in art school and my day was completely different because everybody thought I was a chick. You should see me as a chick. So I went as a girl, as like an experiment and it worked really well and everyone was really nice to me but I couldn't talk obviously...you know train conductors were really cool to me on my commute...HA! I looked hot as a chick!" <-LMAO. TOLD YOU HE IS PRETTY =D
"Craziest thing that ever happened to me was being attacked by a black bird. It pecked the shit out of my head. We were at this hotel called The Phoenix in San Francisco. We were leaving to go to a show the next morning and the bird just fuckin' attacked my head. And the next day Slipknot were there, they were coming in as we were leaving, and they got attacked by birds too."
"Yeah, obviously we use vampires as a metaphor for something else, something deeper than just the supernatural. But there's just something about the bloodsucking walking dead, that can say so much to people. There are really so many people trying to get control over you on a daily basis and steal your soul in some way, take a part of you..."
"Um, lots of people grab my ass. I'm actually starting to get this thing now where people grab my package. That actually happened once in Boston, it usually doesn't happen. We went over to England and it happened at almost every show. I don't really enjoy any kind of invasion of privacy like that I guess. Grabbing my package is obviously a total invasion of privacy I'm not into that at all." <- as a fanatic i would try my BEST no to wouldn't grab their packages if i saw them ^_^
"That's what happens when you're all borderline psychotic and therein lies the beauty of this band - our duality. There's a duality to each band member too. There's a desire to have this constant conflict. If we write a write a song and it turns out really poppy, we have to make the lyrics really fucked up. There's psychosis to everything we do for sure. One day we're probably gonna write this number one pop tune that will be about a massacre!" <-borderline psychotic people=hawt :D
"If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about." <- awwwww.
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Frank Anthony Iero was born on October 31st, 1981 (making him a Scorpio), in Belleville, New Jersey (which he prefers to big cities such as New York or L.A.). Not many people know how to say his last name, which is correctly pronounced "eye-year-oh". Frank is 5'4'' [WTF I'M TALLER THAN HIM O_O] and has hazel eyes with a dark drown natural hair color (now dyed black). He grew up with his mom, Linda, who divorced his dad (a great influence to him over the years). Just like fellow band mate Gerard Way, he has been playing in bands since he was eleven. Frank went to a catholic school growing up, where he learned to tie a tie. He was bullied in high school. He went to Rutgers University on a scholarship, but dropped out to join My Chemical Romance.
My Chemical Romance
He currently is the rhythm guitarist for My Chemical Romance, and is the youngest member of the band. He was recruited after the band decided they needed another guitarist (in addition to Ray Toro) to fill out the sound. He also dropped out of college (and another band, Pencey Prep, scroll down for more) to pursue the band full time. At the time when he joined My Chemical Romance, he had dreadlocks. Frank plays an Epiphone Elitist Les Paul Custom guitar with an Alpine White finish, among others. One of his guitars reads "Pansy” across it in honor of the owner’s nickname. Sadly, Pansy was broken in recent months by an MTV guitar tech.[bodowh guitar tech >=( ]
Body Art
He has the word "HALLOWEEN" tattooed on his fingers and his other tattoos include a Jack O Lantern on his back, "Keep the Faith" on his upper back, the letters "N.J." inside his lip standing for New Jersey, "I wish I were a ghost" around his right wrist, a dove on his left lower chest, an anchor on the lower part of his right bicep with an "N" and "J" on either side, and he has a scorpion on the right side of his neck. Frank got the scorpion tattoo as high up on his body as he could once he decided that he didn’t want a real job.
Prone to Injuries
He unfortunately has suffered from Bronchitis and ear infections, as well as two broken toes, four chipped teeth, lacerations to hands, knees, and his head, numerous contusions and bruises, and endured a nasty case of mono. Alas, he still smokes. [haha WTH to all of these things, keshian fwankie ): ]
Interests
Some of his favorite bands are Black Flag, American Nightmare, The Bouncing Souls, and The Beastie Boys. Frank loves reading books, especially the Harry Potter series. Frank Iero admires Billie Joe Armstrong (front man of the punk band Green Day) so much he learned to play guitar by imitating him. He also plans on buying a guitar that looks like Billie Joe's. Frank’s favorite movies are Tim Burton’s Nightmare Before Christmas, Rushmore, and The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Iero once expressed a want to meet Tim Burton. He loves dogs and prefers sunsets to sunrise. Frank used to go for strolls in cemeteries claiming, "It’s very peaceful.” [yayiee i agree with the bolded sentences, sunsets and cemeteries are yay. :D]
Side Projects
Frank has his own clothing line, record label, and publishing company called Skeleton Crew. It is not a T-shirt company. Before he started playing with My Chemical Romance, Iero fronted a band called Pencey Prep. Along with Pencey Prep, he also has played with the bands Hybrid, Sector 12, and Give Up the Ghost.
Quotes
"This is a band that will save your life." <- wooooooohoooo
"I would date Gerard." <- so would i :D
"I can't imagine any other bands having better kids than ours, and if they do at least I know our kids can beat up their kids." <-nyaha so mean ):
"I'm totally f-in' bummed about the 'Ghost of You' leak. If you see a site with a link to the video, please don't watch it. Don't send it out. Don't look at screencaps. It's NOT FINISHED YET!"
"If I revealed my secret identity, the world would go to shit." <-CUTEEEE
Camera Man: "Can't handle with that."
Frank: "Hmmm, you need to a open mind my friend."
"Oh, one time we got held hostage!”
"We've mutilated, killed and disemboweled rock 'n' roll clichés!”
"My biggest addictions have been chocolate cake, mashed potatoes, and butter sandwiches.”<-CHOCOLATE IS YAYIEEEEEEEE
"I burn everything and call it Cajun.”
"Really I don't know anything other than Jersey. I like the dirtiness of it. Now I'm getting to see the world, and it's great, but it's not better than Jersey"
Camera man: "Did you read the new Ellen Degeneres book?"
Frank: "Yeah."
Camera man: "What did you think?"
Frank: "It made me a fucking lesbian!" <-CUTEEEEEEEE!
Wellsies, if you wanna see other stuff go to http://www.imnotokay.net/my-chemical-romance/
Right now i shall go eff off and start cleaning my pigsty asylum, aka room.
Farewell mortals [:
twisting beside myself @5:44 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
and you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it
well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste my time with you
should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste my time with you
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way my hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
[whispering:]
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you
Sounds familiar?
Haha.
It's blue and yellow by the used. A song which i put in my blog earlier this year.
Remember now?
:D
It's been about exactly one year since i was so into this song. And gosh, it's been number one on my '25 most played songs' list in my ipod for about one year. o_o
Well, anyway i decided to change song because i realised that i have so foolishly overplayed that song, 'set phasers to the stun' by TBS.So when i hear it now it's like meh instead of WOW.
If you know what i mean.
Okay so the actual reason why i did that is because well, blue and yellow brings back SOOO many memories.
1) How i so retardedly thought i would have a chance with a furkin 22-year old and was freaking sad when he turned his head away when i was standing there, for no reason.and how depressed i was after that.
2) How i brought my ipod to amsterdam after that incident and listened to it in the cold cold winter ):
3) Amsterdam's memories in general ):
[my father was taking the picture.]
4)Hahaha, how i was so obssessed with MCR [and still AM!] and put crazy stuff like these into my photobucket account near my amsterdam pics
[haha look at frank.]
^_^
and omgosh, i hope this was photoshopped or what
hahahahahahahahhaahhahaha *laughs and then cries*
-_-
5) How i was also so obsessed with whatshisname? from kingkong
=
ARGHHH.
last year was an awesome year. I just came to realise.
Because i learnt loads of things and i grew up [both literally and figuratively ^_^] and met great friends through friendster *smiles at shahirah and feffe* and all that.
Even though my results sucked and i was still as much of a loser as i still am, it was all great.
I went to somewhere faraway during the holidays, i grew closer to shahirah and feffe and i was actually also closer to my cousin.
This year just... came. And is going too fast. I've changed a lot physically[10 tons fatter.], mentally and emotionally. I've realised some people's true colours, felt much more anger and hate, etc. Thus the love for rock songs which can make one deaf. My family has changed too, but i think i've blogged enough about this matter.
And i still can't accept the fact that it's less than 2 weeks to 2007. At least i could feel the year getting towards its end last year.This year just went by too fast. And too badly.
My feelings for some family members,friends and other people have changed. If you find that i have distanced myself away from you this year,that's because i feel weird around you. Which is because you've done loads of things to hurt me and i just can't take it any more.
And i'm NOT being sensitive.
Either that, or because i was hurt so much by some people that i just realised that making friends is useless. What's the point, they're just going to hurt/betray you anyway. Even if they're really good friends they'll also die one day. And maybe then you'll have nobody.
Nobody.
Such a scary thought.
Anyway. There's only one thing that's good this year. Well, a few things.
In being hurt over and over again, i think i'm stronger now? I don't know. But i've realised LOADS of things about life which never dawned upon me before.
AND THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR I BECOME A SENIOR! hahaha.
But i'm still not used to the idea of being a senior because:
1)I'm an extremely UN-examplary [sp?] senior.
2)I still feel like a junior. -.-
And to think i'll have two batches of juniors next year, pfft.
Oh well. I'll cope if God lets.
Anyway, just now i wrote quite a straightforward comment to MCR on myspace(which i made just for MCR<3 ). I hope they (especially gerard) don't take it too hard. Well, most of them were compliments anyway.
okay, i don't know where to start.
1) I LOVE MCR TO BITS.
Sorry but i love Three Cheers more than black parade. Coz three cheers has its own unique sound whereas songs in the black parade sound somewhat like..Queen. But they're both very nice so yay to all of you<3
2) Gerard, you're freaking hawt but sometimes i can't help wondering whether you are straight, bi or gay.no offense but please tell us so we fan girls would know! i know you probably won't have time to read this but we really REALLY really need to know. Please.
I'm soooo sorry if this question is too intrusive but we love you too much! It would break like a billion girls' hearts if you were gay.
I love you too much. =D
3) Mikey, last time i thought you were extremely cute with spectacles, but now i think you're BOTH cute and hot! ^_^
4) Bob, your hairstyle is gorgeous. Loving the fringe man.
5)Frank, you might not be the tallest but your voice is sexayyyyyyyeeee :D
6) Ray, i love your hair too. It's good for headbanging. Hahahaha.
Well i hope all of you read this, but what the heck you obviously won't coz you're too busy. i just hope you do though. once again, I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and gerard please please reply we need to know!!! ):
[PS: Frank, when you said that the five of you were 'ugly, fat old men' in the making of the 'Welcome to the black parade' video, let me just tell you that i BEG TO DIFFER! =D
PPS: Oh and Bob, you should seriously make a solo record on songs of gerard way. The 'OHHH GERARD, YOU MAKE MY HEART BURN' part was so awesomely true.]
heeho.
well, it's friggin 2:06am right now, goodbye world (:
twisting beside myself @6:06 PM
Monday, December 18, 2006
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
so here's the problem: i DON'T KNOW when to delete my blog!
Or even whether to delete it in the first place.
pffft. but i know i have to, don't want to feel like a louzer next year.
):
CAN YOU PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR OPINIONS? well, i'm going to Malaysia in 4 days' time and i was thinking of deleting it on the 20th at night, but then again i don't want shahirah to miss out so i'm thinking of letting her come back from malaysia first and then on the first of jan when everyone's in singapore, that's when i delete my blog.
):
well, i think this is the third time i'm asking for your opinions about this, so if nobody's going to say anything about it, then i have nothing to say...
AHH WHATTHUHELL I LOVE ALL OF YOUUUU. I LOVE YOU FEFFE, SHAHIRAH, KAPOOR, HEEQMAH, NADIA LAMRI, AND MY JUNIORS, AND EVERYONEEEE.
ARGHHH AND FEFFE AND SHAHIRAH AND KAPOOR AND HEEQMAH AND ALL, I SHALL MISS READING YOUR BLOGS NEXT YEAR, I CAN'T EVEN TOUCH THE COMPUTER.
D:>
D:<
D:
D':
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sooo, opinions needed please and thank you.
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Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to kapoorrrr, happy birthday to youuuu :D
Hahaha.
Well if you are wondering why the heck i'm wishing kapoor happy birthday when i just fought with her like, 2 days ago[which was my birthday], it's because i already made up with her.
-__-
yes, kapoor and i are like siblings. always squabbling for the smallest things. haa. also, our birth dates are 2 days apart, which makes it even more o_ofying coz it means that we might be long lost sisters or something.
well, there you go. happy birthday. and just forget about what your mum said lah. mums can be so pffft-fying sometimes. and you just thank God that you're mum doesn't have a temper quite as horrible as mine.
but anyway, i totally agree with
"seriously, last yr, i was counting down to my birthday and this year, the meaning of birthday have totally change for me. birthdays are like numbering ur days to live. ur just a freaking one yr old to ur expiry date which is soo not cool."
so, lesson of the day is: birthdays are just like any normal day. you get one year older,which is nearer to your deathday, so boo to that. presents can be yay for some, but they are just okay to me. therefore, birthdays are just like any normal day.
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Welll, so i went shopping yesterday!
^_^!
because my mother was asking me what i wanted for my birthday and i couldn't answer so i just said shopping, and she said okay since she came back early from work yesterday. she wanted to bring my two brothers along, but i said i'd totally DIE if i have boys around me while shopping because all they'll do is:
"HURRY UP!" *sulks in one corner*
"HURRY UP, I'M HUNGRY!" *sulks in another corner*
well that's my dad, but for my bros:
"HURRY UP, WE WANT TO GO HOME AND PLAY LAA. DON'T ONLY THINK ABOUT YOURSELF CAN."
-______________-
so yay, shopping with my mommee :D
so first, i went CD-shopping! We took the lift from the carpark and it stopped at Isetan, then i said i wanted to buy CDs with the money my grandmother gave me, so my mum said ok and that we'll meet outside Isetan at 8.45pm.
So i went to gramaphone.
The first thing that caught my eye as i entered that shop, was this person who was arranging some DVDs or something, near the pop/rock section.
That person looked freakishly like paul twohill from the back. And the person was very tall [pssh i was wearing high heels and the person was taller. -_-] and wore all these paul-twohilly clothes and had a nice black studded belt around the waist and nice black boots and nice paul-twohill hair.
I had a mini crush on paul-twohill look-alike and kept staring at the paul twohill look-alike.
until....
a girl went up to paul twohill look-alike and said something and paul twohill look-alike replied and guess what!
SHE WAS A GIRL!
Immediately my hopes of well, having a crush on her was dampened. Hello, i'm not a lesbian okay. >=[
So, i disappointedly went to look for the Taking back Sunday CD. There was this band called Take That and i was 'cmon taking back sunday!!!' and i searched and searched and i couldn't find it.
Well, so i took one more look at paul twohill look-alike, and then a miracle happened! Well, either a miracle happened or i did not see properly, i FOUND THE TAKING BACK SUNDAY CD!
=D
it was right beside the Take That CD, what the hell.
And i was so happy i was smiling to myself [if i got my way i would have been screaming and jumping up and down, so smiling to myself without doing crazy stuff is already good enough for me.]
Then i checked the price of the CD and my heart sank-$27.95!
But it's okay, i mean it's the last one and it's imported from the US so whatever.
:D
So then i decided that i
So well, i walked and walked and then i saw paul twohill look-alike coming in my direction!
:D
Then i asked her about whether there was the other taking back sunday CD , and she so nicely helped me check and i just tried my best not to stare at her, then she said no, it was out of stock. and then i asked will it ever be coming in and she said no. and then she so nicely said that if i wanted to find those kinds of CDs i should go to HMV at The heeren.
-_-
well so then i thanked her and looked for more CDs.
I have a feeling that she brings good luck or something. I found the 'The Used' CD and it was the last one, and then i found Muse's old CD, showbiz.
But i
And asked the same question about whether they had the other CD, then she said no it was out of stock, then when i looked disappointed she said," Yeah i know, i like these bands too."
So then i looked for breaking benjamin's CD but ngeh it wasn't there so i went to pay up! [:
And the total cost for the three CDs are $68 something cents -__-
so i asked the person why so expensive, and he said it's because the TBS CD. oh well. -.-
so when i left the shop i caught paul twohill look-alike's eyes and sort of smiled.
Gah. And i think i was starring to much inititially. Once, she gave me the o_O look.
-_-
I think she thinks that i'm lesbian but noo, it's just that it's really annoying when girls look like hot guys and you can't have a crush on them or else you're gay.
-____________-
Oh yeah, did i mention that when she smiled at me when telling me about herself liking those bands too, that she wore BRACES?
^_^
Braces are yay. Paul twohill wears them. Paul twohill look-alike wears em. I wear em. And i don't think i want to take them off even though my teeth are straight, because i want to resemble paul twohill as much as possible
=D
Anyway i was so.. dazzled by Paul Twohill look-alike. I hope you guys don't think i'm lesbian now and start avoiding me, it's just that i get very 'geram-ed' at people who look like paul twohill coz they're hot.
And if you're thinking, 'paul twohill? hot?? EWWW'
Well i never said he was hansum. just hot. anyway nice body. he has abs man. Abs.
And his hair and his clothes and RAWR all that stuff *dies*
okay what the freaking hell i sound bimbo. -_-
but anyway,
Hope that picture's not to blur/huge.
So, from left: Showbiz-Muse, In love and death-The Used, Where you want to be- Taking Back Sunday.
[:
HAHAHAHA OMG i'm at my photobucket account now and i just uploaded that picture, and guess what i found
^_^ geeeee
Well, so after that whole CD thing i went up to Isetan again[just in time, 8.45pm. was done starring at paul twohill look-alike -_-] and mother was not in sight.
Waited and waited for five minutes.
No one.
So i went in and she was at this corner trying on a skirt and then i was just looking and walking around and seeing all the nice clothes and the only thing on my mind was of course, paul twohill look-alike. Ok fine. i have a mini crush on her, but i'm not lesbian. Anyway i only have a tiny crush on her coz she looks like paul twohill. I STILL LOVE PAUL TWOHILL TO BITSSSS <3
and i love paul twohill look-alikes, they're hawt [:
I'm todally sick with girls looking like hawt guys. Once, shahiylia, aisyah and i went to Singapore post centre's Mcdonalds, and we saw this hawt person.
Well, we were confused coz he/she looked like a boy and had a piercing on the top on her/his left ear. However, he/she had a piercing on his/her nose, and i mean come on, nose piercings are mostly for girls right.
-_-
And the nametag confused us even more. His/her name was 'Nur'. And nur can be for a boy or girl.And this one time, when he/she was doing some work, me and shahiylia saw his/her shirt being pulled back and THERE WERE NO BOOBS AND IT WAS FLAAAT. flatter than ME.
So we were sort of debating, 'no i think it's a boy lah', 'but it might be a girl'. We were using 'it' all the way because we were really confused about his/her gender.
In the end, we couldn't stand the suspense anymore.Me and shahiylia approached this lady who was cleaning the trays and asked whether Nur is a boy or girl. And guess what? SHE IS A GIRL.
So we were so malu-dified that we ran out of the damn place, and i turned around to see Nur laughing at the counter, pfffft.
PFFFFT TO ALL ANDROGINOUS [sp?] GIRLS WHO LOOK LIKE HAWT PRETTY BOYS
Hahaha okay well back to yesterday.
So after that i went looking around for nice stuff in Isetan, and bought this nice $12 black choker thing with a nice pendant.
So that's it. 3 CDs and a pendant. Wanted to shop more but dad arrived and was sulking coz he was hungry, so i had to stop shopping. -______________-
Then we went to eat at this restaurant/hawker center [i'm not sure] near our home, then we talked and talked and talked and suddenly my mother whispered to me, "psst, cute guy."
And i was like," WHERE WHERE??"
then i saw this sooo uncute guy whom she thought was cute, then i was like," nah. not my type."
then my father was like," who's your type? PAUL TWOHILL?"
and i said yeah and then my father so cute, he turned to my mother and said very solemnly,"where did we go wrong in bringing her up?"
haha. then they said their usual nonsense about how they would react if i 'bring a boyrfriend like paul twohill home' or some nonsense like that, i mean pfft
then mother said something about paul being a freakazoid and wanting negative attention.
THEN THEY CALLED ME KINKY. :O
well. kinky means unusual in a negative and sexual way. something like that, i think.
wth.
anyway hurray, i shall be piercing my left ear today. and it's the one above the first piercing lah. not the high high one that i had previously.
goodbye my friends :D
twisting beside myself @5:14 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Well, just as i had expected.
Many people did wish me happy birthday, thanks to them. But some others didn't.
-__-
I'm not going to be pissed off like i was last year, because like i said, i don't expect anything.And i had expected that the same people last year who didn't wish me happy birthday won't wish me again this year. And it came through.
Oh well, whatever. Actually i don't see the point in celebrating someone's birthday. I mean, it only marks the day you were born, what so special about it?
So yesterday came and went like nothing. Only went out at night to swensens with my family, and since it was my maid's birthday too [she's 27 and i'm 14, but i looked like the one who's 27 and she looked 14 -__-] my grandmother asked the waiters and waitresses to sing the happy birthday song, haha so embarrassing but cute and fun. And everyone was staring at us.
:D
And they came with balloons but when they saw that me and my maid were far from young kiddoes, they gave us only two balloons and kept the rest. -_______-
and then we went home and i waited for a looooong time for at least someone to call and say happy birthday, but neh. anyway they didn't say happy birthday last year, what makes me think they would this year? hahaha to me. so dumb.
Being a pessimist is good in some ways. You don't expect anything good to happen, and when they don't, you are relieved that you were right. Anyway i think i'm done with that 'expecting too much out of people' thing. The world is evil, and if everyone can get that into their skulls, everything will be fine.
=]
And some people don't come across as evil evil, but they're just moronic. Not malicious, just moronic. That's why they didn't say happy birthday. Moronic, not malicious. Shall get that into my head.
[:
Coz i know anyone with half a brain would know that saying happy birthday to someone who has a birthday is extremely duh-fying. If they don't know that then they're moronic. not malicious.
or maybe they're just overseas. Or whatever.
I feel this weird feeling now. I can't blog like i used to, and i don't know why. It's like i lost all my interest in blogging. Which is good, because i'm going to delete this blog in 4 days' time.
Or should it be postponed to the 1st of January?
I swear i don't know.
Anyway about the weird feeling thing, i mean i know what i should be blogging about but i don't,I just give a summarised version of it.
Hmm.
Well. I've nothing to blog about now. I'm officially 14, yay. I'm going to be a studious geek next year, yay. I'm going to lose weight and get good results, yay. I'm going to, to be a good senior, yay. Arrogant seniors should rot in hell, i swear. I don't know what's there to be so arrogant about. You're older than us, so? You're going to die sooner than us anyway, pffft.
Not really. Death is unpredictable. But anyway, people are known to die at an old age right. So there you go, arrogant seniors. Be prepared for your doom.
>=D
huh. how did i get to the death thing ah. What thu hell.
Right, bye.
twisting beside myself @4:43 AM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
I just realised that birthdays are just like any other day. In fact, you'll get so distracted by the computer [and certain hot gerard way cartoon videos :D] that you'll forget it's your birthday anyway.
So i've been thinking about that post below. And i've come to realise that i either:
a) do too much for people and expect too much, only to be disappointed
or
b) am too sensitive.
or both.
or whatever.
garh.
your opinions needed please.[about the post below and this post.]
third 'X' on the left. tagboard. thanks.
twisting beside myself @6:37 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006
By the way kapoor, if you are reading this, which i highly doubt since i'm so insignificant in your life, the post i told you about was below vvvvvvv
so yeah. uh. Shahirah asked me to tell feffe and matt some things before she left.
To feffe: She says she feels your absence. And so do i,really. Actually she said a few more things but i forgot, argh.
To matt: She said something about being sorry about last night [mannequin thing] . And a few more things but i also forgot, haha.
-_-
Sorry to the two of you and to shahirah, for forgetting what she asked me to tell you both.
And ahhh, shahirah i'm missing you already. Feffe i really really miss you when you left for malaysia and japan. Like shahirah, i feel your absence.
Thank goodness you're coming back tomorrow. :D
But shahirah's leaving until the 20th at night, and i'm leaving for malaysia on the 21st in the morning. ARGH. >.<
I'm thinking of postponing the date of deleting this blog to the 1st of January. There'll be no school until the 3rd or 4th, so yeah. Anyway i would want to say my last goodbye to shahirah and feffe before going offline for ages.
What do you think? [whoever YOU is, considering i'm really unimportant now to many people. isn't that right, kapoor?]
twisting beside myself @2:08 PM
Time is nonsense.
It's like in those cartoons. Like the main character looks very carefully at something, then when he turns around for a while and turns to look back, the thing disappears.
If you look at the clock, it will tick very slowly. But when you turn around and do your own things, it flies like noone's business.
I feel like taking this magic remote control thinger and press rewind all the way to the beginning of the year. or better, my whole LIFE.
But then again, if you think about it, everyone would be so perfect if that were to happen. No mistakes, nothing. Because you already know your past mistakes and you know how to correct them.
Therefore, the point of me saying all this nonsense, is that time is stupid and quick.
----------------------
So i just got back from our squad's BBQ a while ago. But shall talk about that later.
Right now, i just want to highlight something which i really can't stand about bloggers.
Well, first you go to a blog, be it your friend's or relative's or whatever. Then you read its contents and you find it quite interesting. Then you start flooding their tagboard. And sometimes leave the link for YOUR own blog.
But these people, they either
a) ignore your tags/links completely
b) don't even have the decency to go to your blog and TAG AT LEAST ONCE, DESPITE YOU FLOODING THEIR TAGBOARD LIKE SHIT.
And yeah, well nobody asked ME to go tag YOUR blog. But as a friend/family member/whatever, i would just like to go to your blog to see if there's anything new or interesting in your life.
But WHY CAN'T YOU DO THE SAME FOR ME?
What, once again Nadiah Ameerah Binte Khairul is another piece of doormat. You step all over me, and when i'm old or dirty you throw me away and forget what i have done for you.
IS IT??????????
If you SERIOUSLY have nothing to tag about, why can't you just say hi or something or better, just say why you're not tagging. Maybe "Hi,I'm tagging your blog now but i don't know what to tag about so bye" or SOMETHING like that?
But what kind of effed up excuse is this? :
"13 Dec 06, 11:45 kapoor: if i dont like what i see, i dont go to it"
Yes kapoor, disregard me. I'm after all, a piece of used sanitary napkin. yes, yes. Fuck. So fucking annoying.
And if you're still hung up about whatever i said to make you angry or what in previous posts, FINE! I'M SORRY! GET OVER IT, LIKE YOU TOLD NADIA.L TO GET OVER HER PROBLEM!
But noooooooooooo. you decide to not tag at all, which leaves me wondering why you're not tagging. Are you overseas, or are you just lazy.
Answer: Lazy.
More like lazy and annoying and selfish! Do you know how much EFFORT it takes to tag? Ok fine, not so much for very opinionated people like me. But still?
And it irritates me enough that you're not tagging despite my one billion tags on your blog, it irritates me even more when you say that "you don't like what you see". What the HELL do you see? WHAT? What's so stupid/boring/irritating/whatever that you can't stand?
You know kapoor, you've changed a lot okay. During sec 1 you were like so enthusiastic and friendly to me, and i was quiet last time because i was shy. But seems that we've swapped characters now! But you're not shy, you just CAN'T BE BOTHERED ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS AT ALL!!!!
Whatever okay? If you have anything to say about what i've said, whether true or untrue, kindly TAG it. thank you.
And other people,pffft. You tag their blogs also full of things, and they tag stupid short nonsense irritating tags. Shan't say who, though.
And i'm sorry if i seem very petty. Just that it annoys and hurts me a lot when i put a lot of effort into something and get something very little out of it. I hate it when i put a lot of effort into pleasing friends, but they just shrug me off like i'm nothing. It fucking hurts okay kapoor.
ARGH. Just what i needed on the eve of my birthday. I swear this year has been really bad.
And i'm not hoping for much tomorrow because i know not many people will call to say happy birthday to me. Since i'm so fucking unimportant what. Might as well take that stupid time remote control i mentioned earlier and rewind all the way before my parents even had sex to have me. Fuck.
Well, thanks a lot kapoor for making my day, i really appreciate it [:
twisting beside myself @12:56 PM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Well,i just so happened to be replying testimonials on friendster, and i was replying to this person who started this 'MCR fanclub' thinger. And i checked her pictures, and guess what i found.
I just pray that he really said that and that it wasn't editted by some no-life arse. But it really touches me gawhh, if only there were more not-shallow guys in the world. Then i would get married. :
Gerard way, i love you. you're hansum and talented and you really touched me by saying that.
I feel like hugging the damn hottie now okay.
Speaking of which,i came across another photo
DO I SMELL SMOKE IN HERE? [:
HAWTIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
and
hansummmm :D [referring to all of them.but gee the most<3] href="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger/5692/1730/1600/556158/37327436848415l.jpg">
=hawt.
Love the eyebrows and how he raises them :D
and yayie i got something like his necklace thinger! you can get it from minibits. they have all those kinds of nautical stuff. [:
and HAHA you have to see this
funny. :D
and bob is hot now, and ray has very interesting hair.
:D
so anyways, meh. the holidays come and the holidays go. just like zat *snaps finger, or at least attempts to.*
in one weeks' time i shall delete my blog.
in 2 days i shall turn 14.
in 11 days' time, it shall be the 2nd anniversary of the day i discovered i had become a woman. and i was in JAPAN dammit! >.<
okay you didn't need to know the last one. but yeah, it was in japan. and i thought it was just another case of urinital track infection which i had earlier that month, then it turned out to be
______.
scary, rawr.
haha wth, i just said you didn't need to know the last one, but then i wrote it down for the whole world to see. -_-
stupid ironic me.
hum, waiting to delete your blog in seven days is like cancer. you know when you're going to die so you just sit and wait for your time to come. maybe that's why i can't update properly or that's why nobody has been tagging much. but maybe they're on holiday? i don't know.
ok so i said blogging was boring. well not really. only boring for this hoildays because i've been staying home and being a sloth like 80% of the time. and i DO have sentimental attachment to this blog okay.but i guess it has to go. studies, the fear of getting into trouble only because you have offended people....
oh yeah, that reminds me.
for the LAST time to my aunt&cousin:
Look, i'm sorry for washing my dirty linen in public okay. [if that phrase is gramatically correct.]
I didn't say i wasn't wrong for writing about family affairs for the whole world to read. and i know you're embarrassed.
However, i never said that i regret the content of it, because i don't. What i said was 100% how i feel. And i hope that before making any judgements on me or scolding me, you both can look into yourselves first.
I know what i said was rude. But it's how i feel, so there. And according to Lisha, there is a girl who tells my aunt everything i said, and that girl's my friend who reads my blog? Whoever you are, please own up. Coz what you did has caused me, my cousin and my aunt loads of problems.
By the way makbusu, i don't think you should ask pakngah to scold lisha for what i did.[that's what i meant by emotional blackmail.] scold me instead, that's fine with me. because whatever you say, i'll still stand by what i have said. No amount of scolding will make me change my mind.
And to lisha, i KNOW she's still my aunt. And i used to respect her a lot more until what happened. by the way, someone can still be your relative until he/she turns his/her back on you. it happened before. and those people who were betrayed obviously hate those 'relatives' of theirs. despite all that they've done.
so anyway,the point is, what i have done isn't right, but neither is what you have done. two wrongs don't make a right, so there.
i'm not going to blog anymore about this because i don't want to cause anymore unnecessary anger. to you, to myself, to everyone. okay? okay.
i have nothing else to blog about now. so there. goodbye.
Coz the hardest part of this, is leaving you.
Cancer;MCR
twisting beside myself @1:41 PM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
anyway i think your friend nadiah is freaking cute! and funny.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
i went to her blog.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
i love her blogskin
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
heho
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
i think shes delusional.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
wazzat mean.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
wtf.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
kidding... right?
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
nah. have bad vocab. so don't be shocked. so wazzit mean? i've heard it before.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
like um.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
they think somethings real when it isn't.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
OH YEAH
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
yeah i remember something like that
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
lolol!
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
why you say so?
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
she thinks i love her.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
LMAO
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
in a crush or friend way.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
crush.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
i was sitting in class happily one day,
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
whaaat. how you know?
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
then she suddenly walk past.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
'shahrin i know you love me.'
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
i say back ' nobody laves you nadiah, go away.'
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
loves.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
HAAAA.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
lol.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
its an ongoing joke.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
she means it jokingly i guess.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
i think she's kewl. [:
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
she and i have the same tastes in colour.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
black and pink=yay.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
but i don't see you tagging her blog.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
haha.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
hahah.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
scroll down.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
i called her a bangla.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
lmao.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
i meant, not as much as she does for you
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
hahaha.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
lolll.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
but is she nice excluding her disillusioness or her craziness?
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
er... sort of.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
hahahaha kewl.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
tell her i think she's kewl.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
=D
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
lol.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
¬ rin says:
nadiah, my friend nadiah thinks you're cool. i think you suck though. thank you. =]
ballad for dead friends says:
reallly
ballad for dead friends says:
hahaha
ballad for dead friends says:
how come
¬ rin says:
no idea.
ballad for dead friends says:
i have always been cool
¬ rin says:
whatever, you suck.
¬ rin says:
let me ask her why she thinks you're cool.
ballad for dead friends says:
tsk
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
ballad for dead friends says:
yeah, okay
ballad for dead friends says:
tell her
ballad for dead friends says:
i think shes cool for think that im cool
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
HAAAAAAAAAAAAA
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
cute!
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
um, well for one she's pretty crazy like me.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
and she's funny.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
and she has the same taste in pretty much everything, like me.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
and she has the same name as me, spelt exactly like that.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
not like nadia or nadeeya or what
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
but nadiah.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
which is yayie.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
=D
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
ballad for dead friends says:
hahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha
ballad for dead friends says:
hahahhahahahahhahaha
¬ rin says:
i swear to god you're not cool.
ballad for dead friends says:
okay, shes cool
ballad for dead friends says:
hey, i am okay
ballad for dead friends says:
very
ballad for dead friends says:
where she from?
¬ rin says:
tkgs.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
lol.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
HAHAHAHAHA.
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
omg, did she see the cute tng?
lachrymose- Love isn't blind, you are. says:
aiyoyo.
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
ballad for dead friends says:
age?
¬ rin says:
14.
ballad for dead friends says:
sec 3 next year?
ballad for dead friends says:
hahhaa, tell her i almost went there
ballad for dead friends says:
but too smart
[c=#0057AE]¬[b]rin[/b][/c][c=#FF4A4F]<3[/c] says:
see what mean.
twisting beside myself @4:06 PM
Now i shall be posting some videos which made me squeal/laugh like a bimbo-retard. The first two, especially to MCR fans.
Credits to ain for putting the first two videos on her blog.
First of all. How HOT is the gerard way cartoon? And ain thought it was scary. pfffft. [i'm turning 14 in 3 days and i still have a crush on cartoon characters. wow.]
Secondly, i'd kill to be that girl. Freaking lucky kae. Why waste your life with some blonde bimBOY when you have Gee. garh.
Thirdly, i would'nt want to be sent to IMH if i saw visions of Gee. I'd enjoy every minute of it. But people around me would have to tolerate all the squealing and bouncing, of course.
:D
This thing turned me on so much i started rubbing my paris-hilton eye so vigorously. -__-
Oh well. The first one turned me on too, yayiee.
There are some special moments in that vid, but i forgot, meh. The 14th reason is especially cute, though. And yes girls, close up, he does look quite handsome.
Ah what the hell. He IS handsome! He's Gee's brother what <3
But there's something weird about him. With glasses he looks extremely cute, but without glasses and eyeliner he looks kawte [cute and hot.].
Ahhh these dreamy dudes. If only my parents would let me marry someone like them. *sighs and smiles to self*
My Dad: "Nadiah, if you ever bring a boyfriend like paul twohill home, i'm going to throw the BOTH of you out."
My Mum: "That My Chemical Romance lead singer is surely a gay! He has that look lah! I'm sure he's gay!"
-_________________-
OOOHH is that a '15 reasons why Gerard Way rocks' video i see on youtube??? :D
Nevermind, i shall save the squealing for tomorrow.
Anyway,
Hmm. Well i thought the guy in red is freaking talented, i mean he can sing and play well. The guy in black is so cutely extra and screamy, and i love the part where the guitarist comes in randomly. :D
Actually i respect people who can play instruments and sing simultaneously. Because i know that requires lots of concentration. Once i talked to a friend while playing the piano and then i stopped coz i was playing nonsense.
-.-
Ok that's all folks. Goodnight.
Oh wait, hold on.
[PS to someone who die-die try to read my blog and i shifted blog coz of her, but in the end she found it:
Kindly stop threatening Lisha and making life more miserable for her. Emotional blackmail won't help.She doesn't deserve it. Neither of us do.
Thanks, and goodbye.]
and
[PS to kapoor and heeqmah: DON'T NEED TO TAG MY BLOG ANYMORE IS IT? HMM]
twisting beside myself @3:18 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
1. Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering?
i don't HANG it, i put it on my bed :D
2. What kind of mouse pad do you have?
i dont use any (:
3. Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
brushhh :D
4. From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity?
hmm. C.Ronaldo is drop-dead gorgeous, Gerard Way is sizzling, so is Brendon Urie, Ryan Ross is so pretty it can kill, etc.
5. You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue?
i would rather wrench my teeth out than have an undone project due tomorrow, thank you very much! >_<
6. Chicken or pork?
Porks are for non-muslims man. CHEEKEN :D
7. By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark?
not really. i can leave the house at 7am and still come on time :D
8. If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be?
UNICORNS! Unicorns are hawt. If i had to choose which specific unicorn, i'd say CHARLIE. yayiee. mermaids have weird shells on their boobs. get a proper bra, woman.
9. What was in your bag the last time you went out?
er, when was the last time i went out? -_-
10. What time does the sun usually set?
6.50pm? 7? around there.
11. What do you think of last before you go to sleep?
shit, i hope i dont die while sleeping.
12. AC or fan?
fan! aircon everyday is so obnoxious ah. aircon is necessary only when the weather can make you melt.
13. Do you wear braces?
yes.
14. Can you hand stand?
i can't even do a girl's push up or inclined pull up, so don't even talk about that please (:
15. If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair?
paul twohill's hair= <3
16. What level math are you in?
haha don't know
17. Jessica Simpson or Alba?
NONE. Jessica simpson's not pretty at all without make-up, jessica alba is not very pretty either. =
18. Which subject is worst, English or Math?
ENGLISH! compre is frittershitz
19. What's one thing you really want to do this very moment?
lose weight.
20. After buying something, do you automatically throw it away?
if i realise it's useless, yes. but if not i'll wait for it to spoil THEN throw it away.
21. CD player or iPod?
ipod!
22. Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water?
haha. drop! though it will cause another tsunami -__-
24. What you got planned for the weekend?
nothing really. i have a feeling that this is one of the worst holidays ever.
25. Have you ever gone ice skating?
yes. very hard!
26. If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do?
draw. and then maybe if there's still lead left, i'll vandalise the room.
27. Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV?
sometimes.
28. How was your day?
boring so far. and i still look like paris hilton.
29. Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them?
bite in the process of growing. but if they're long enough then CUT yayiee. :D
30. Describe your handwritting:
messy but thank God it's still legible
31. Do you consider yourself a stalker?
haha.not really.
32. Do you bruise easily?
literally and figuritively,yes. eeyeww.
33. There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do?
read a book. duh.tho japanese language=yay
34. Do you know more than 3 friendster codes?
sort of.
35. You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will it be?
type. muchhh faster than write.
36. Do you wear jeans to relax at home?
never
37. Describe yourself using one word:
eccentric
38. Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers?
if i said yes i'd be lesbian, so no way. (: by the way i have no best friends.
39. Do you like ice in your drink?
duhh.
40. Do you have abs?
yes. bouncy ones. :D
41.What is the best nickname that u ever had?
NONE. all suck. the weirdest one was given to me by my mum. 'bantiti', wtf.
42.Do you think suicide is the best way?
hell no.
43.Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10?
3?
44.Are you in love with someone at the moment?
does chocolate count?
45.Are you missing someone at the moment?
nope.
46.Would you die for the one you love?
depends on who is 'the one'.
47.Whats the best thing about love?
nothing in particular. not that i know of much of it,really.
48.Whats the worst thing about love?
broken hearts.
49.Will you wait for someone you love?
i think so.
50.What song that best describes your love life at the moment?
pieces-sum 41. i have no love life please.
51.Do you wanna get married?
yes, but no. no because nobody will want me, so i'm not expecting anything.
52.Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
mostly try to forget them.
53.What are you going to do today/tomorrow?
maybe go shopping, then have tuition.
54.Do you play an instrument?
piano. I WANT TO LEARN GUITAR!and drums.
55.Have you writen your own song?
yes, but the only place they land in the end is the dustbin.
56.What movie did you last watch?
happy feet.
57.Do you believe in love forever?
for some people, yes.
What song is in your mind rite now?
nothing in particular. boring, meh.
twisting beside myself @5:42 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
This poem teaches a lesson. Start now.
It was early in the morning at four,
When death knocked upon a bedroom door,
Who is there? The sleeping one cried.
I'm Malkul Mawt(the angel of death),let me inside.
At once, the man began to shiver,
As one sweating in deadly fever,
He shouted to his sleeping wife,
Don't let him take away my life.
Please go away, O Angel of Death!
Leave me alone; I'm not ready yet.
My family on me depends,
Give me a chance, O please prepense!
The angel knocked again and again,
Friend! I'll take your life without a pain,
Tis your soul Allah requires,
I come not with my own desire.
Bewildered, the man began to cry,
O Angel I'm so afraid to die,
I'll give you gold and be your slave,
Don't send me to the unlit grave.
Let me in, O Friend! The Angel said,
Open the door; get up from your bed,
If you do not allow me in,
I will walk through it, like a Jinn.
The man held a gun in his right hand,
Ready to defy the Angel's stand.
I'll point my gun, towards your head,
You dare come in; I'll shoot you dead.
By now the Angel was in the room,
Saying, O Friend! Prepare for you doom.
Foolish man, Angels never die,
Put down your gun and do not sigh.
Why are you afraid! Tell me O man,
To die according to Allah's plan?
Come smile at me, do not be grim,
Be Happy to return to Him.
O Angel! I bow my head in shame,
I had no time to take Allah's Name.
From morning till dusk, I made my wealth,
Not even caring for my health.
Allah's command I never obeyed,
Nor five times a day I ever prayed.
A Ramadan came and a Ramadan went,
But no time had I to repent.
The Hajj was already FARD on me,
But I would not part with my money.
All charities I did ignore,
Taking usury(interest) more and more.
Sometimes I sipped my favorite wine,
With flirting women I sat to dine.
O Angel! I appeal to you,
Spare my life for a year or two.
The Laws of Quran I will obey,
I'll begin SALAT this very day.
My Fast and Hajj, I will complete,
And keep away from self-conceit.
I will refrain from usury,
And give all my wealth to charity,
Wine and wenches I will detest,
Allah's oneness I will attest.
We Angels do what Allah demands,
We cannot go against His commands.
Death is ordained for everyone,
Father, mother, daughter or son.
I'm afraid this moment is your last,
Now be reminded, of your past,
I do understand your fears,
But it is now too late for tears.
You lived in this world, two score and more,
Never did you, your people adore.
Your parents, you did not obey,
Hungry beggars, you turned away.
Your two ill-gotten, female offspring,
In nightclubs, for livelihood they sing.
Instead of making more Muslims,
You made your children non-Muslims.
You ignored the Mua'dhin Adhaan,
Nor did you read the Holy Quran.
they sing.
Breaking promises all your life,
Backbiting friends, and causing strife.
From hoarded goods, great profits you made,
And your poor workers, you underpaid.
Horses and cards were your leisure,
Moneymaking was your pleasure.
You ate vitamins and grew more fat,
With the very sick, you never sat.
A pint of blood you never gave,
Which could a little baby save?
O Human, you have done enough wrong,
You bought good properties for a song.
When the farmers appealed to you,
You did not have mercy, tis true.
Paradise for you? I cannot tell,
Undoubtedly you will dwell in hell.
There is no time for you to repent,
I'll take your soul for which I am sent.
The ending however, is very sad,
Eventually the man became mad
With a cry, he jumped out of bed,
And suddenly, he fell down dead.
O Reader! Take moral from here,
You never know, your end may be near
Change your living and make amends
For heaven, on your deeds depends.
If this poem inspires you,
It can help someone too.
Hmm. What a beautiful poem that can make someone who's not religious, change. :D
Anyway, this is dedicated to all the Muslims who read my blog. I hope you all get some meaning out of this, and that is to be a better Muslim while you still can before your time comes.
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Anyway, about the frank talk.
So, i already guessed that natasya and gang knew it was me. It was smacking-in-the-face obvious.
So after learning rifile drills and stuff, we sat down in one circle with maam bahiah and jasmine.
We started with natasya.
So natasya was saying some stuff about the person who was tagging siti's blog, and that was me. She was saying stuff like she didn't think it was fair that she had to break up with her friends just because of me and all that. Then maam bahiah asked her who she thought the person who tagged siti's blog was and she said me, [pssh i told maam bahiah the day before that i was the one] and then maam bahiah asked me if it was me and i said yes.
And farzean was being very cute, crying and laughing at the same time. I guess she was touched at what natasya said and all.
So the, fatimah, yi jun, farzean and maryam had nothing to say so it was my turn. I drank some water before saying what i had to say, then the maams decided we should move to the back of the classroom block because there were other seniors around the void deck and we had no privacy. But the area behind the classroom block was flooded with sunlight so we sat around the watercooler outside the sec 1 toilet instead.
So i began to talk.
Well, i didn't exactly cry on the first sentence but my voice was shaky, then after i said the first thing that made me feel hurt i started to sort-of hyperventilate and then i cried and then i couldn't talk and then maam bahiah passed me a packet of tissues and i was apologising to everyone for not being able to talk because of crying for no reason. -_-
talk about malu-fying please.
So then yeah,i told them all the stuff that i felt hurt about, and WHY i did what i did, which was to tag sarcastically and anonymously in both afifah and siti's blog.And i also confessed that i was the brown cow in afifah's blog, and that i have kept all this to myself since i was in sec 1. Most of the stuff was what i said in the cancelled part of the post below.[Yes, even the flirty and bitchy part. :O]
And i was like crying throughout the whole thing and after i made the brown cow confession afifah cried a lot and farzean was actually crying seriously now and natasya and asyikin looked very... solemn. Unfortunately Siti wasn't there because she's in Thailand.
So in the end i looked at all their faces and said i was sorry if i had ever offended them or because i was sarcastic and all, and that my intentions were good.Then after i was done talking [and still crying] i said,"ok, next" which made everyone laugh. ahah. whatever. -.-
Then ida told amirah about how she felt about amirah, and ida actually looked angry while amirah was half-crying and explaining to ida why she did those things she did. Then aisyah was crying too and said how she felt about some things.
Asyikin,Afifah&Syahirah didn't say anything, though. I was expecting afifah to tell me how SHE felt, but she didn't say anything. Weird.
Natasya on the other hand, told me she felt that it was unfair that i did that because when she tries to talk to me, i am reluctant to reply and all and therefore she feels hurt.
And i realise that is the case with me when my hati sudah tergores by people lah. Like at the start of the friendship i'm bouncy and yayiee and all that, but when i discover your bad side and all the stuff you do to hurt me, i'll distance myself from you as much as i can. Which is wrong, i mean i should try to tell you why i'm like that instead of being so evil and avoiding you right? This shall be part of my new years' resolution. (:
So in the end, i felt much better and more bonded at least. And no more grudges against my squadmates, which is very yay. Disrupting the peace, is bloody bullshit.
I'm not being ego, but i'm proud of myself for having the courage to confess all those stuff. Even though i said it while crying, i still did tell them my feelings in their faces right? Of course, it wouldn't have been possible without the moral support from maam bahiah and maam jasmine and all their cute jokes. And of course, God. But yeah i still did it anyway and i'm glad i came clean. :D
The only problem, however, was siti.She wasn't there because she wasn't back from Thailand yet. So i asked maam bahiah how i should go about telling her how i feel since she wasn't around to let me tell her my feelings. Then, m.Bahiah suggested i tell her during our squad gathering on the 14th of December.
I thought that was a good idea, but to my surprise today, i found a message from siti saying she was really sorry for what she did and all that. And i replied saying that i'm really sorry for what I did.
I guess i judged them too much before knowing the REAL them. They are actually really nice people. Tsk. Maybe i should practice what i preach, and that is not to be judgemental anymore. It's very difficult to NOT be judgemental altogether, but i should really get to know people better before deciding what i think of them.
So after the frank talk and getting dismissed, we went to eat at Videoworld and i'm so happy that we actually talked. Despite the fact that I said pretty shocking stuff during the frank talk. It's like when i was with them at Videoworld i realise how nice they all were. In their own ways. And it was the first time i was so happy with the people whom i initially disliked.
And get this: I was outside browsing through this magazine and they all were like," Eyy, where's nadiah?" and when i looked inside the room, ALL of them were starring at me.
I actually feel like i matter to some people. I'm very paranoid lah. I don't even feel like my family members care about me sometimes. Or my friends for that matter. But knowing that people feel your absence is good enough for me.
:D
So yayieee lolol i'm happy with my squadmates now. :D
One point that's already being settled. Now the second one, is my obesity.Because being obese affects your physical appearance, your fitness level, your SELF ESTEEM, and the way you look in your npcc uniform or school uniform. [i look disgusting in both.]
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Today i had a bad dream after waking up for the morning prayers and sleeping again.
Ok, so my uncle downloaded this new show in America called "Heroes"and burned it into a CD for me and my family to watch.
Yes, it obviously involves people with super powers but it's a freaking awesome show. I can't wait for it to come to Singapore so you can see how good it is. :D
So anyway, let me spoil the fun for you: There's this murderer in the show called 'Sylar', and he kills people with special powers and remove their brains so he can extract the part where there is a special power from it, and put it into himself. So he steals powers in other words.
So my bad dream was about me being a person with a super power. [not sure what though, haa.] Then Sylar was in my dream and he was this botak guy with huge O_O red eyes [though he didn't look ANYTHING like that on the show] and he was trying to kill me.
So my dad or mum was driving the car on this road, and it had loads of bends. Then i saw Sylar at this bend then when i turned around, he wasn't there. Then it happened a few more times. Then i was feeling freaking scared already.
Then i came home and he was in my room!! o_o And he was doing something with the world map [something to do with the show but very complicated to explain it here, so yeah] and then i asked him where he was from and he said Africa in this weird accent, and nothing like that happened in the show. >_<
Then i woke up to my mother saying that it was 10.45am already and that i should wake up. -__-
Then my eyes felt weird but i thought it was only because of the dream, but then when i went into the toilet and looked into the mirror, i looked like
NOT in a good way. I mean, look at her eyes. THEY'RE WEIRD! Check out her left eye. THAT was my right eye this morning.
It looked swollen, so i went downstairs and told my maid about it and showed her, and she said it was swollen so she put a towel of warm water on it.
Later my dad came home for a while and i showed him, and he said i had eye infection. So i freaked out coz i thought i would go blind, but he said i wouldn't so yay.
:D
He gave me eyedrops to apply 4 times a day. So far i've only taken it twice a day, heehaw.But my dad also told me that i had a pimple in my eyelid. Wth? How did it get there?
And we had to go to a relative's wedding just now and i didn't wear eyeliner or contact lenses because of this. wore eyeshadow, though. And i still have to wipe it off, or else my infection will just get worse. As it is, my whole right eyelid hurts now. So i have to go wipe of my makeup now, goodnight.
twisting beside myself @5:15 PM
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