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WILKOMMEN

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

and it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it

should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

and you never would have thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you cannot miss
it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

well you're never gonna find it
if you're looking for it
won't come your way
well you'll never find it
if you're looking for it

should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste some time with you

waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you

should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste my time with you

should've said something but I've said it enough
by the way my words were faded
rather waste my time with you

should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way my hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you
waste some time with you

[whispering:]
should've done something but I've done it enough
by the way your hands were shaking
rather waste some time with you

Sounds familiar?

Haha.

It's blue and yellow by the used. A song which i put in my blog earlier this year.

Remember now?

:D

It's been about exactly one year since i was so into this song. And gosh, it's been number one on my '25 most played songs' list in my ipod for about one year. o_o

Well, anyway i decided to change song because i realised that i have so foolishly overplayed that song, 'set phasers to the stun' by TBS.So when i hear it now it's like meh instead of WOW.

If you know what i mean.

Okay so the actual reason why i did that is because well, blue and yellow brings back SOOO many memories.

1) How i so retardedly thought i would have a chance with a furkin 22-year old and was freaking sad when he turned his head away when i was standing there, for no reason.and how depressed i was after that.

2) How i brought my ipod to amsterdam after that incident and listened to it in the cold cold winter ):

3) Amsterdam's memories in general ):

[my father was taking the picture.]

4)Hahaha, how i was so obssessed with MCR [and still AM!] and put crazy stuff like these into my photobucket account near my amsterdam pics

[haha look at frank.]

^_^

and omgosh, i hope this was photoshopped or what

hahahahahahahahhaahhahaha *laughs and then cries*

-_-

5) How i was also so obsessed with whatshisname? from kingkong

=
ARGHHH.

last year was an awesome year. I just came to realise.

Because i learnt loads of things and i grew up [both literally and figuratively ^_^] and met great friends through friendster *smiles at shahirah and feffe* and all that.

Even though my results sucked and i was still as much of a loser as i still am, it was all great.

I went to somewhere faraway during the holidays, i grew closer to shahirah and feffe and i was actually also closer to my cousin.

This year just... came. And is going too fast. I've changed a lot physically[10 tons fatter.], mentally and emotionally. I've realised some people's true colours, felt much more anger and hate, etc. Thus the love for rock songs which can make one deaf. My family has changed too, but i think i've blogged enough about this matter.

And i still can't accept the fact that it's less than 2 weeks to 2007. At least i could feel the year getting towards its end last year.This year just went by too fast. And too badly.

My feelings for some family members,friends and other people have changed. If you find that i have distanced myself away from you this year,that's because i feel weird around you. Which is because you've done loads of things to hurt me and i just can't take it any more.

And i'm NOT being sensitive.

Either that, or because i was hurt so much by some people that i just realised that making friends is useless. What's the point, they're just going to hurt/betray you anyway. Even if they're really good friends they'll also die one day. And maybe then you'll have nobody.

Nobody.

Such a scary thought.

Anyway. There's only one thing that's good this year. Well, a few things.

In being hurt over and over again, i think i'm stronger now? I don't know. But i've realised LOADS of things about life which never dawned upon me before.

AND THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR I BECOME A SENIOR! hahaha.

But i'm still not used to the idea of being a senior because:

1)I'm an extremely UN-examplary [sp?] senior.

2)I still feel like a junior. -.-

And to think i'll have two batches of juniors next year, pfft.

Oh well. I'll cope if God lets.

Anyway, just now i wrote quite a straightforward comment to MCR on myspace(which i made just for MCR<3 ). I hope they (especially gerard) don't take it too hard. Well, most of them were compliments anyway.

okay, i don't know where to start.

1) I LOVE MCR TO BITS.
Sorry but i love Three Cheers more than black parade. Coz three cheers has its own unique sound whereas songs in the black parade sound somewhat like..Queen. But they're both very nice so yay to all of you<3

2) Gerard, you're freaking hawt but sometimes i can't help wondering whether you are straight, bi or gay.no offense but please tell us so we fan girls would know! i know you probably won't have time to read this but we really REALLY really need to know. Please.

I'm soooo sorry if this question is too intrusive but we love you too much! It would break like a billion girls' hearts if you were gay.

I love you too much. =D

3) Mikey, last time i thought you were extremely cute with spectacles, but now i think you're BOTH cute and hot! ^_^

4) Bob, your hairstyle is gorgeous. Loving the fringe man.

5)Frank, you might not be the tallest but your voice is sexayyyyyyyeeee :D

6) Ray, i love your hair too. It's good for headbanging. Hahahaha.

Well i hope all of you read this, but what the heck you obviously won't coz you're too busy. i just hope you do though. once again, I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and gerard please please reply we need to know!!! ):

[PS: Frank, when you said that the five of you were 'ugly, fat old men' in the making of the 'Welcome to the black parade' video, let me just tell you that i BEG TO DIFFER! =D

PPS: Oh and Bob, you should seriously make a solo record on songs of gerard way. The 'OHHH GERARD, YOU MAKE MY HEART BURN' part was so awesomely true.]

heeho.

well, it's friggin 2:06am right now, goodbye world (:

twisting beside myself @6:06 PM

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