Sunday, December 03, 2006
Uh. I realised that i might delete my blog by the 21st of December, instead of the end of the month. Because i'm leaving for Malaysia on the 21st all the way to the 31st, and by the time i come home it will almost be school time and i probably can't play by then.
Argh.
It really sucks to delete a blog.
Like i'm an extremely sticky piece of tape which someone stuck on the wall, and the feeling of deleting a blog is like trying to peel it off. Peeling a piece of tape of a wall will of course, cause the paint to peel off too. And the paint that peels off along with the tape only shows how much loss i feel for deleting a blog. I'm a sentimental person. >_<
Sacrifices stink when you are doing it, but hopefully the outcome of it is good. If i don't get good results next year, i just don't know what to do with myself anymore.
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Right. So my birthday, [15th of December] is coming in about 2 weeks' time.
And i find people like my parents and uncle asking me what i want as a present.
To which i can't reply, because the truth is, i don't really like presents.
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Reasons why i don't really like presents.
1) Sometimes they are things which you don't like or expect, but you just don't want to tell the person who gave it to you because it might hurt his/her feelings.
2)Since i'm always giving people stuff [to the point of them making use of me], i don't really expect much from anyone.
I think that the best thing to do as a present, is not to receive it but to give it. Don't people ever realise that as a present is given to them, there are still millions out there starving for food, love and care? Things we have but take for granted.
I don't know why, but when i make people happy, it makes me happy too. To me, the best present is to give. Not to have another chocolate cake and sing the 'happy birthday' song with my family members indoors, where there is actually a roof over my head.Very much unlike the less fortunate people, some of whom sleep on the roads because they can't afford a house.
So why are we sitting down being happy and not helping others? What's the use of yet another materialistic gift? After all, you can't take your material possessions to your grave. So technically, your present is going to be lost/spoilt/forgotten one day when you're dead.
I really want to go to the orphanage for my birthday. Maybe for donating money and talking to the orphans or whatever. I just need to feel satisfied that i've done something good for people who deserve it.
But if i publicly announce to my family members that i want to go to the orphanage for my birthday, they'll probably laugh at me or something. =.=
Well, whatever. Anyway i have a feeling that we all should go to some childrens' home or old folks' home or whatever for our birthdays to make people happier.Also to realise that we are blessed with things these people don't have and to appreciate these things more.
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By the way kapoor, if you are reading this, don't forget to buy me a present and i won't forget about yours either.
haha, the irony. XD
twisting beside myself @4:40 AM