Sunday, February 25, 2007
1. who is the most important to you?
As of now, i swear i don't know...
2. who was the last who sent you an sms and call you?
sms: feffe call:no one i can recall
3. are you good in your studies?
far from it my friend.especially this term.
4. can you speak chinese?
numbers 1-10 only.
5. who was the last who said 'i loveyou'?
no one in particular.
no one loves me ass hole.
6. who is the most annoying person you know?
...certain people who do nothing but tag along annoyingly like a leech and don't leave you in peace. some of you should know who.
7. what time is it now?
12 noon exactly.
8. who are you thinking of now?
nothing, nobody, whatever.
9. how many friends do you have on friendster?
200+? not sure.
10. who are you chatting with?
cousin.
11. are you in trouble?
more like deep shit. [report book]
12. have you been heartbroken before?
cwyawh. by certain people whom i thought were friends but i think i've come to accept the fact that friends do nothing but disappoint you in the end. haiz.
13. missing someone?
nah.
14. what day is today?
the dreaded day before a whole week starts again -__-
15. what do you hope for your birthday?
nothing much, thanks to the answer in number 12.
16. bored?
quite.
17. last channel you watched on tv?
don't rmb.
18. what time did you sleep last night?
11.20pm. pfft. so early and woke up so late.
19. do kids love you?
no, i intimidate them.
2o. do you make people laugh?
hahaha. yeah.
21. do you give away your secrets to anyone?
quite =/
22. ever smoked?
passive smoking.
23. ever drinked?
water<3
24. ever got drunked?
on caffeine,yes.
25. dumped someone?
whoever wants to ask me out is a crazy dodo bird with bad taste. so no and maybe never.
26. wat type of personality are u?
i don't know okayyy.
27. do you love getting msgs at friendster?
nope.
28. are you tired of love?
yeah. i hate it now.
29.are you angry at someone?
the whole world? still pms-ing la dhey.
3o.why?
pms.
31. what do you want to do now?
make myself feel better, help the less fortunate, get my big butt off the comp and do my homework and study.
32. what type of guy you hate most?
those you want you only for your body and not for you personality, SHALLOW BOYS [they're everywhere i tell ya] and many many more types. just refer to the list on the left okay.
33. who is the person you want to see now?
nobody.
34. do you believe in fate?
yes, but it doesn't believe in me.
35. in the last 24 hours, have you cried?
been a bitch yep. not cried.
36. laughed?
i think so.
37. felt sad?
HELL YESS
38. Are you hurt right now?
nah. pms-ed.
39. what do you want to do right now?
have someone to hug me go away
40. if you have a choice wat would you want be in your next life?
i don't believe in next lives, i believe in the AFTER life
~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~"~
01. Does ur name have an 'a'?
four in total
02. Two of your dominant feelings at the moment?
annoyed. irritated. angry. angsty. i can't choose any two.
03. What are you listening to right now?
The (After) Life of the Party- Fall Out Boy
04. Part of song lyric that's in your mind right now?
"I'm a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart"-The (After) Life of the Party- FOB
05. Describe where you are right now?
outside my room beside the piano next to the staircase
06. What is your best day of the week?
fri-sun, even though i never have time to study because everything's so rush.
07. What are you craving to have rightnow?
not to have a sense of hopelessness, and for someone to hug me right now go away
08. Best memory in childhood?
carefree-ness.
09. Worst memory in childhood?
being used by 'friends', nevermind it's too painful to recall.
10. What are your nicknames?
whatever lah go away.
11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
1.school 2.leadership training bullshit 3.tuition
and to collapse on my bed.
12. Your three plans for today?
1. try to be happy. 2. finish up my piano homework 3.and school homework and if possible, to study
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
nobody.
14. Do you party?
nooooooooo.hate them.
15. Do you like twins?
quite. although i wouldn't want anyone to look like me.
16. Fill in the blank: I am __.
in need of a hug GO AWAY I HATE YOU
17. Say something to the person who made you mad?
i wouldn't want to say anything, it shows poorly of him/her and not me so yeah boo to them not me. but right now, i'm pissed of with a certain leech who doesn't want to leave me alone and tags along like nobody's business so i'd like to say
"PISS OFF!!!!!!!!!!"
to her but i shall be civilised and say that i need my own space next monday.
19. Mary has her little lamb. What do you have?
i don't know man, i don't know.
20. Say anything to whoever is reading your ans?
hmm. hi.
21. What do you drink?
waterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
22. Are you in love?
before i punch you, go away.
23. What kind of girl / boy do you like?
i love smart boys and i like girls who are nice.
25. What was the thing that made you pissed off?
PMS.
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You know.
I get sooo annoyed when i'm in a bad mood for no reason, i.e pms, and when i tell my family members to leave me alone they don't and then when they talk to me i snap back and they label me as 'giving attitude' but i clearly remember telling them to not disturb me, but they still did
and then i see signs of biasness because i couldn't even listen to my ipod in the car because of 'family talking and bonding' or what not, but most of the time it's just freaking muse on the radio and no talking whatsoever, but then when we went home yesterday from that place my freaking brothers could listen to their mp3s and i'm just a moody arse giving attitude
but i just remained stoic and didn't complain for everything i do is wrong
why can't you just get it into your head that when i'm moody, i'd just like to be left ALONE? DON'T EVEN FREAKING TALK TO ME OR WHATEVER, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE BECAUSE YOU WILL GET ANGRY AND I WILL GET ANGRY WHEN YOU TRY TO SPARK A CONVO WITH ME BECAUSE I'LL JUST SNAP BACK
but of course, i'm always the rude one giving attitude. you never understood me and probably never will
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this year started.
i broke the ice by jumping to another glacier, hopefully i'd feel warmer on this one because i felt really cold on the previous one.
however as the saying goes, the grass is always greener on the other side but that's not the case for me because here i'm dealing with glaciers not grass
then in this glacier i didn't even feel accepted. the other glacier which i jumped from is now much warmer than the current glacier i'm standing on.
in the end, i have no glaciers to save me from the freezing water of antarctica. i don't feel warm enough on both the glaciers.
then, another lonely glacier comes along and follows me around despite me trying to get it off my back. i didn't want to jump on it because it was cold not warm.
thus, i lost two glaciers, hate one of them and i'm just stuck now.
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don't get what i just said? whatever. it's a way i express my feelings.
i just hate everything about everything now.
twisting beside myself @11:57 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
hello.
yes, i'm finally updating for what seemed like a thousand years.
:D
but let's push those events away, shall we. let's concentrate on something else.
likeeee
you don't care about me do you.
PMS ALERT!YES, YOU DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME.NOBODY EVER GIVES AS DAMN ABOUT EACH OTHER. THE WORLD DOESN'T GIVE A DAMN, DAMN IT.
YOU'D ALL WILLINGLY LEAVE ME IN A DRAIN IF IT WERE FLOODED LIKE THOSE JAKARTA PEOPLE. LIKE YOU EVEN
CARE ABOUT THOSE JAKARTA PEOPLE.
AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THOSE OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO NEED HELP LIKE THE ISRAEL AND PALESTINE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN WAR BUT OBVIOUSLY THOSE RICH STUCK UP JERKS OUT THERE ARE SAYING," OOH THEY DON'T NEED MY HARD-EARNED MONEY. LET THEM FACE WAR, IT'S THEIR FREAKING PROBLEM"
FUCK THEM MAN!!!
AND OBVIOUSLY NOBODY COULD OR WOULD OR SHOULD CARE ABOUT ME, I'M SUCH AN UGLY BITCH WHOM BOYS WOULD VIEW AS 'FAT AND UGLY AND DARK' COZ OBVIOUSLY PALE-SKINNED STICK-INSECT-LOOKING GHOSTS ARE A BILLION OR MORE TIMES ATTRACTIVE
FUCKERS
AND EVERYBODY NEEDS LOVE, IT'S NOT LIKE GOD CREATED US WITHOUT FEELINGS COZ WE DO HAVE FEELINGS AND WE NEED LOVE IF NOT WE FEEL DEPRIVED RIGHT
I AM LOVED BY PEOPLE LIKE MY FAMILY BUT I DON'T FEEL IT. AND I MOST DEFINITELY DO NOT FEEL LOVED AS IN 'THAT' KIND OF LOVE, BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY LOOK MATTERS AND I OBVIOUSLY DO NOT EVEN QUALIFY AS AVERAGE-LOOKING BECAUSE I'M SUCH A FAT UGLY DARK BITCH WHO DOESN'T DESERVE LOVE
FUCKERS!!!
AND I HATE THOSE GANGSTERS WHO THINK THEY'RE SO COOL, LIKE WHAT THE HELL, YOU'RE JUST INSECURE THAT'S WHY YOU FREAKING NEED ATTENTION!!!!!!! MY TUTOR JUST TOLD ME THIS EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING TRUE STORY ABOUT HOW THIS INNOCENT CHINA BOY FROM THE SECONDARY SCHOOL THAT SHE TEACHES GOT BEATEN UP JUST BECAUSE HE ACCIDENTALLY PUSHED THIS GANGSTER ASSHOLE DURING BASKETBALL, THEN GANGSTER ASHOLE [GA] TOLD CHINA BOY [CB] TO GO OUT OF SCHOOL FOR A 'TALK', AND CB BEING INNOCENT THOUGHT IT WAS A REAL TALK BUT APPARENTLY THERE WERE TWO OTHER GAs WAITING OUTSIDE, AND THEY BEAT THE HELL OUT OF HIM AND GUESS WHAT? GUESS FRIKING WHAT????? HE WAS WEARING SPECS AND THEY PUNCHED THE SPECS INTO HIS EYE AND THE GLASS FUCKING GOT STUCK ON HIS CORNEA AND HE BLED A HELL LOT AND HE IS NOW IN ICU. THE GA GOT EXPELLED AND HIS PARENTS HAVE TO PAY FOR CB'S HOSPITAL FEES AND I'M GLAD JUSTICE IS SERVED
I HOPE GA BURNS IN HELLLL!!!!!!!! DIE BITCH DIE AND BURN IN HELL, AND I HOPE YOU NEVER GET ACCEPTED INTO ANY SCHOOL AND GET JOBLESS YOUR WHOLE LIFE AND I WISH I COULD GOUGE
YOUR EYEBALL OUT AND SEE HOW IT FEELS EH? NOW THE CHINA BOY IS PROBABLY GOING TO BE BLIND THANKS TO YOU , CRAZY MF
ARGH
AND THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I'M PISSED ABOUT, PERHAPS I SHOULD RANT LATER
GOODBYE
twisting beside myself @9:28 PM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
well hullo, it seems years since i've updated even though it's only 17 days and you and i both know that it's 17 days but it seems like years.
-__-
anyway, i just want to update saying HOLD ON, LET ME GET MY FURKIN ACT TOGETHER AND MANAGE MY FURKIN TIME PROPERLY, AND MAYBE THEN I CAN UPDATE WITH A PEACEFUL MIND.
goodbye. Maybe i'm updating these weekends. Trust me, i've got a helllll lot of things to update about. Goodbye mortals.
twisting beside myself @12:08 AM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Muse Concert cont'd.So where was I? oh yeah, starlight.
Starlight: "I just wanted to hold you in.."-
