~headlock

WILKOMMEN

Sunday, July 22, 2007

So tell me what you want what you really really want?
-I want to be comfortable in my own skin. even though i'm fat. which... is difficult. yeah.
-I want good grades.
-I want self-discipline.
-I want to love myself,my family members and friends for who they are despite their imperfections.
-I want to be a better Muslim.
-I want people to understand that other people have feelings.
-I want world peace.

and many other things.

Out of the above, what is most reacheable?
recently i aced a test and it made me want to achieve more. :D

What's the most troubling thing in the world to you?
self-control and a whole lot of other shit in this problematic world.

Sights/Smells/Sounds?
HEHEHE BIBAH AND I HAVE SIMILAR INTERESTS IN SMELLS XD
sounds? nah. sights, plenty of scenery. [:

What do you think of smiles?
it makes me feel better.

What do you think of beauty?
it is of extreme unimportance to me. i know this sounds cliched, but inner beauty rules. serious.

despite saying that, though, i do admit feeling self-conscious most of the time

What do you define as cool?
inner beauty :D

Rain/Shine?
light shower with a breeze. where you need an umbrella but there's no thunder or lightning or water splashing onto your leg.
or. bright but very breezy.

What do you define as a bestfriend?
after the recent fall out with a friend, i realised that everybody has imperfections. however, i really want my best friend to be able to be there for me when push comes to shove. and understand me. not being conceited, so vice versa too of course.

What constantly keeps you going everyday?
i don't know really. life? or to prove everyone that i'm not a loser? yeah.

What is one common assumption people share about you that's not true?
that because i'm so-called 'rich', i'm supposed to be happy and have less problems than anyone else.

Who is the most important person in your life?
i don't know. without my parents i wouldn't be here, without their support i'll crash and burn, without my grandmother life has no meaning, without my friends i wouldn't get to learn life experiences.hope that answers your question.

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life is showbiz.

at home you're this pessimistic depressed kid, and at school you put up a show that you aren't, and that in fact you're the opposite-a bubbly,happy,fun-loving kid.

on magazines people wear make-up to enhance their looks and go around saying their life is perfect.

do we really know what's going on in their lives?

no, we don't.

it's just a show.

around different people you're different.

unless you have a concrete identity and you're secure enough to show it to everyone.

other than that, we're all just shows. life is a stage. we're actors, coming on at different times, and playing different roles.

but then, amidst all this 'acting', where do we find our true selves?

the answer, i believe, lies deep down inside for nobody to see.

and thus, it pains my heart when people go around judging others by what meets the eye, and not what is felt with the heart.

and please stop saying it's human nature. first impressions are NOT human nature.

it's all a matter of self-control, whether you want to believe that person IS like that at a first glance or not. i too, admit that sometimes i judge people from the outside. but at least i am making an effort not to.

so, whatever to you. believe what you want and do what you want. i'm done with you. everytime i say something, you'll think i'm trying to act like a saint, when all i'm trying to do is to knock into your thick head a sense of CONSCIOUSNESS of what you're doing.

maybe on the outside you put on a show that you're confident and happy. but deep down inside every actor has his shortcomings when it comes to confidence.

thank you. i hope you understood this bull that i've just typed. if you don't, well, it doesn't matter to me. this is my show to you.

twisting beside myself @12:32 PM

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