~headlock

WILKOMMEN

Saturday, August 18, 2007

oh man. i haven't blogged in ages. haha. life is shit. as usual. )=

but this week was especially....well, bipolar. no offense to anyone. that's the only word that comes to my head.

got back some results, many devastating. and i'm pissed at teachers who promise to give us back our papers the next day but disappear for the next two days. -_- oh well. i won't be a selfish arse, maybe she had issues. HAHA. issues. HAHAHA. right. -_-.

reason[s] why this week was bipolar:

1) MOL/DMCUBE -_- if you get what i mean. haha. what is the short form of bloody mole per dm cube? hahahhaha. yes, you know what i mean. at least, some of you do. -_-

so, mol per dm cube was damn nice to me except yesterday, i don't know what happened. it made me depressed okay.

2) results=good/bad, mostly bad, thus i cry one minute and laugh the next. -_-

like, bloody freaking crazy i tell you.

and my mother just HAD to make it worse yesterday. obviously when someone is moody, you keep your distance right, but NO! she just HAD to pester me and keep asking why i looked moody (reason was mol/dm cube).

i mean, i know asking means you give a damn, but when people are pissed or annoyed, it's better to keep your distance. and i'm so sick of

" WHY CAN'T YOU BE LIKE ME? WHEN I WAS A STUDENT FIRST THING I'D DO IS TELL MY PARENTS EVEN THOUGH THEY DON'T WANT TO HEAR BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH"

whatever. just what-freaking-ever you know. oh, so i'm expected to be EXACTLY like you now?Maybe NOW some of you know why i can't seem to accept anything, including myself.

and when i fight back, i'm the extremely bad daughter who rebels in every way possible, including self-mutilation and mol per dm cube, yup. and i hurt their feelings because they have tried to be great parents but i am not trying to be a good daughter. yup.and why can't they have their 'sunshine girl back' (yes, i was a freaking smiley asshole when i was a baby.) like last time. because obviously she has enough bloody SANITY to smile. she isn't fat, in fact she's gorgeous. she's a straight-A student. she's extremely perfect. yup. so why can't she be a happy smiley bouncy freak?

wait, wait. i thought people who were ALWAYS HAPPY are INSANE? what are you trying to get at?

i swear to God i was so pissed and emo and God knows what else yesterday, i had simply NO mood to attend zany parade today. i was supposed to be a bloody vampire. ): now i have two things to worry about.

1) mol per dm cube
2)how my classmates will react to me not coming. according to my mother i am of no significance in their lives, so i shouldn't worry. but i can feel it coming.

and it doesn't help when the 10000000000 people you messaged on your phone, don't even BOTHER to reply. it's okay, i know your excuse.

'i don't know what/how to reply.'

fine then. when YOU'RE facing a crisis like me, then i won't care. i think i give up caring. it's too hard.

and if mol per dm cube knows, i'm as good as dead. goodbye to you. life is beautiful.

twisting beside myself @6:39 PM

blog

tag

links