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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

haha! exams in two days! HEHAHEHA

-_-.

weird and cool things that happened today:

1) morning assembly, was laughing so hard about something freakily amusing the previous day, and suddenly everyone went quiet and starred at me laughing at diyana and then this fannoying teacher came out and said

"diyana and company, please move to the front."

which was freaking amusing because I started the laughing thing not her and I was the one laughing more. then while waiting to be scolded i saw atifa then atifa laughed then i laughed.

then at the flagpole a clique from 3e3 were being scolded by mdm lenny, and then mdm lenny turned to diy and i and asked us why we were there.

"i was laughing and i looked at her, then this teacher pulled us out to go to the front."

i swear mdm lenny herself was trying to keep a straight face.

as i was talking the 3e3 clique people starting giggling and mdm lenny said all of us had to stand at the flagpole during assembly the whole of this week and see if we still had 'such desires'.

haha. awesome.we got booked in the end. why? for laughing.HEHE :D

2)bio- teacher was frikin hilarious

3) chem- fun! i finally managed to complete my practical worksheet without being a freaking bimbotic fool copying from diyana or something. of course, thanks to mrs liew.

4)recess- had SS supplementary. then ms saffiah made all of us stay until 11.10 and when the bell rang she was like

" haha no recess! it's ok la, everyone puasa ah"

haha. cool. everyone was complaining tho, but i was just amused. i would be pissed if i wasn't fasting though

5)lit was by far the only sane period...i think. no wait, i laughed like mad too

and halfway, bibah popped into my class with a bunch of 3e9 kids asking if we had the 2005 emaths paper. then at first i gave her a math -_-

6) e math was cool! once again, mdm Raudhah did that write-on-the-board-because-she-couldn't-talk thing, and it was so amusing :D

7)english! hehahehah. trishna caught my contagious laughter and laughed everytime she looked at me -_-

and masyitah came up with all these weird jokes and i started laughing

and tamz and diy and puja were talking about indonesian language= all of us laughing

and haha! kapoor and rae were pissed off at our laughter.

and i had this pikachu eraser which many people commented about -_- trishna called it loser HAHAHA

8) after school- edna was making all these weird noises, so amusing

hahaha. and next week's chem and hml and a maths and bio and lit, and i'm scared for chem and amaths and bio and lit, because

1)i have no clue about chem
2) i haven't done a single practice on amaths trigo,which is a lottttt.
3)bio=HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA I SUCK AT IT
4)i haven't read the book a second time

and then the next week is emaths and history and hml2

emaths i'm scared, esp for graphs and circles, and history i'm just plain clueless

and hml 2, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i think i'll get a B -_-

well anyway,

Psychoanalyze yourself! Don't read ahead, just answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means at the end. (No cheating!)

1. You are not alone. You are walking in the woods. Who is/are with you?

~*- uhh. nadiah i guess. then we'll both be laughing together at stupid stuff that are supposed to scare us. and suddenly a puma comes out with its nose leaking mucus too. <-HAHAHA ATIFA HAHAHAHHA

hahaha my 'recess clique' and i, and tipa and azu and i would be laughing and ida and aishah would be serious-facing

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?

~*- unicorn. charlieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?

~*- i stare at it in awe and start laughing, then my whole clique who has been starring in awe start laughing too, then it runs away, then i say hi. up to it to turn around and talk, or just continue running away

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your DREAM house. How big is it?

~*- a small cottage on top of a hill

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?

~*- yes! a nice fairy-tale like once. like hansel and gretel like that.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining room table. What do you see on AND around it?

~*- a nice fairytale-like table cloth, with sweet candies and chocolates on it.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?

~*-it's like a coffee cup, not a mug, those things with nice round handles, and it has pink and yellow flower patterns on it :D

8. What do you do with the cup?

~*- pick it up and stare at it and wonder what's it doing on the ground and then proceed to return it to the house

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself at: what type of water?

~*- nice lake. with swans. think fairytale.

10. How will you cross the water?
~*- i don't know. you tell me. <-HAHAHA NIAGARA FALLS, SO COOL

um, i'd be this princess (HAHA BANYAK SEH) whose being rowed around by this guy who looks like 'egor' from those dracula stories. but he's nice lah.

The ANSWERS

1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems. ( i'm an escapist! o_o)

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are
welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced. (somehow..this is very true)

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy. (...but i AM generally unhappy. i just love sweets and candies. speaking of which, i just discovered i can't fast. hu-freaking-rray.)

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire. (I THOUGHT LAKES WERE CALM. in that case, atifa rocks for her answer. HAHAHA.)

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be (-_- princess HAHA)

twisting beside myself @5:54 PM

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Hahaha last post before i finally disappear until after the exams. i'm bored.

1. Spell your name without an E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,A,N,Y or T?

` D

2. What is your status?

` i don't care? whether it's social or marital status. because either way i'm nothing

3. What's your favorite number?

` 2

4. What's your favorite color?

` pink and black

5. What's your least favorite color?

` there's this pukish green shade that literally makes me want to puke.

6. What are you listening to?

` nothing.

7. Are you happy with your life right now?

` you'd get the same reply if you ask a random person if you could lick their nose

8. If you were to be any animal in the whole wide world what would it be?

` a cat?

9. What is your favorite subject in school?

` english and HMT. slack!

10. Are you usually outgoing??

` nope.

11. Where do you wish you were right now?

` downstairs eating, or at the table beside me studying.

12. What should you be doing right now?

` eating then studying? o_o

THE CANS:

Can you blow a bubble?:

` yeah.not bubble gum though. annoying

Can you wiggle your ears?:

` nah.

Can you roll your tongue?:

` yes.

Can you touch your tongue to your nose?

` my tongue is short

THE DIDS:

Did you ever want to be a doctor?:

` apparently if you grew up in my household it isn't a matter of choice -_-

Did you ever want to be a firefighter?:

` no.

THE DO'S:

Do you believe in God?:

` yeah.

Do you like roller coasters?

` i'm beginning to think that they are freaky, because i have very regular dreams that i'm on them and they go up down everywhere around and suddenly everyone including me falls out of the sky. i swear i just had another one of those dreams except that we were in those kind of harry potter lifts. then we just fell out of the sky.

asked my mum and she said that's because that's how my life is -_-

Do you own a bike:

` yeah. but i think it's spoilt.

Does your family have family picnics?:

` rarely. and i end up hating them anyway.

THE HOW:

How did you find out about Friendster?

` a friend

LASTS:

last person you hugged?

` i can't remember.

Last thing you said out loud?:

` "OK."

THE WHATS:

What was the last restaurant you ate at?:

` ...entah.

What was the last thing you bought?:

` i can't remember. milo from 7/11 i think.

What was the last thing you had to drink?

` plain water.

What shirt are you wearing?

` green batik dress

What pants are you wearing?

` no pants man

THE WHOS:

Who was the last person who texted you?

` either azura or atifa

Who was the last person you held hands with?

` noone.

Who last talked to you on the phone?

` i can't remember

Who was the last person to leave you a comment?:

` nobody gives me comments. except how ugly or fat i am at home everyday. s'ok though. i'm used to it.

twisting beside myself @8:14 PM

HAHAHAHAHHAHHAAHAH I'M SO AMUSED BY SOMETHING!

apparently, my older brother's friend called collin is pissed with him just because when they were on msn just now,collin was using the webcam-microphone thing and was singing and my brother said he sounded like he was on drugs.

then my brother called him and he put down the phone.

HAHAHAHA.WAH.EVEN I'M NOT AS SENSITIVE AS THAT MAN.

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fasting starts the day after tomorrow.

good luck everyone (:

twisting beside myself @7:49 PM

BLUE IS LOVE

1. Do you like someone?
no. i obviously hate the whole world and i wish everybody died and burned in hell for a while for their sins. -__-

2. Do you believe in love at first
love at first what. sight, sometimes. but most of the time it's based on looks, which is disgusting

3. Have you ever loved someone so much it hurt?
hahaha yeah.

RED IS ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
not really, i'm just in a permanent state of being pissed off at the world, so yeah. everyday i'm mad at people :D

2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
i thought it was my mum, but then i looked into the mirror...

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
i think so. oh yeah! snowball. hah.

4. Is anyone mad at you?
i don't know.

YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY <-serious? i always thought it meant happiness. HAH.

1. Name?
Nadiah.

2. What is your career plan for the future?
i..don't know o_O anything God has fated for me i suppose

3. What's your main goal in life?
technically we're built to worship God.

4. Do you want to have children?
oh my GOD, don't even get me started on the inferiority-complex-marriage thing.

ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
no.

2. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
i'd probably be so numbed by the shock that i wouldn't be able to think. i'd just stone, i suppose.

3. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
i would like someone to help me with the 2005 A maths paper because it FREAKING PISSES ME OFF WHEN I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO QUESTIONS LIKE THAT.

GREEN IS OPINION

1. Lower the drinking age?
i don't care. i never and will never start drinking.

2. Abortion?
if it's the teenage 'oh i can have sex with everybody and just abort the child if i get pregnant' mentality, well then screw the goddamned teenager. [who has been screwed by a lot of guys already -_-]

but well. if it's rape or something logical and reasonable, it should be quite okay. doesn't mean it's a nice thing to do to the child who's getting ripped apart, though

3. War?
unnecessary, but depends on reasoning ah.

speaking of which.

OH MY GOD YOU KNOW WHAT I READ HISTORY 4.1 TODAY ON VIETNAM, LIKE OMG IT WAS SO INTERESTING, I NEVER KNEW HISTORY COULD BE SO INTERESTING BECAUSE I HATED IT EVER SINCE I KEPT FAILING BUT THAT WAS JUST SHIOK MAN.

it's like. when you read and get it, and understand why people have wars, it's just so interesting.

ngo dinh diem is such an ass. so is his sister in law, who said that buddhist monks who cremated THEMSELVES on the roadsides just to oppose his dumb rule are "barbeques"

and the americans! the vietnamese just wanted independence, but they thought they were supporting communism [bodoh kan?] , so they had a war. and in the end the americans stopped because it was very unpopular among the americans and it also cost a lot of money and there were also a lot of casualties on both sides

pfft. barbeques. go read that chapter. fun man!

i can't wait to read more :D

4. Global Warming?
it's inevitable, considering the end of the world IS coming, but we should all do something to try and prevent it as much as possible.

PURPLE IS Q&AQ:

How many beds did you lay in today?
i think mine? sat on my parents'.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
more like batik dress. greeeen.

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
feel sad/pissed/annoyed/insert anything negative here

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most
mine, my friends' blogs,some friendster profiles.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
no,thank goodness. <-what's wrong with that o_o

used to. small cute cactus. haha.but it got shifted downstairs.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body?
i'm having a fever dahling :D

Q: Do you own a camera phone?
yeah. but hardly use the cam.

PINK IS LAST

1. Last movie watched in cinema?
harry potter.

2. Song you listened to?
blue and yellow- the used

3. Person you talked/texted on the phone with?
tipa [:

GREY IS TODAY

1. What are you doing tonight?
study, study, study, makan and maybe then jog, and then, sleep.

2. What are you going to eat?
bol kentang.

3. Where are you going to be at 2:00a.m?
in my room, sleeping.

BLACK IS FOR TOMORROW [i can't put it in black ]: ]

1.Tomorrow is?
wednesday.

2. Are you looking forward to it?
nope.

3. Are you going to laugh?
i laugh everyday.

4. Who are you going to be with?
friends at school?

5. Do you want to change that?
?

6. Do you have a crush?
no,nay,nope, probably never will

but then again...maybe

7. When's your birthday?
december 15.and i'm not going to say *HINT HINT* annoyingly because i don't care about presents anymore, i realise that the more i have the lower i feel.

8. Are you happy with life at the moment?
i have suicidal thoughts often, what do you freaking think?

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twisting beside myself @7:03 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EVERYONE!!!!!

=D

=D

:D

(:

yes, very different tone to this post as compared to the others, no?

welllllllllllllllllll.

i'm feeling hyper giler happy sad annoyed pissed happy exam-mood lalalalallalalalalalalalalla

:D

this morning i was in a serial killer bad mood because i hated bio to bits, and now i think it's okay, partially because i've completed something and feel a sense of achievement in my worthless life

nothing's truly complete though

English EEEEEEEEE

Social Studies SUCKS

Chemistry CHI BAI

Higher Malay MAK KAU

A Maths ASS

Biology BABI

Literature elec LOSER

E maths ENDURING! [whatever]

History Core HAKKKKKTUIIIIIIIII (if you don't get this, try spitting and you'll see what i mean.)

BUTTTTTT

life moves on.

:)

How old will you be in 3 years?
= 18

Do you think you'll be married by then?
= -_-

What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
= after EOYS, after malay O'levels :D

Who was the last person you talked to?
= i... can't remember o_o

What do you think about the person that took this survey before you?
= BIBAH BOWEEWA! love her open-close-mouth-big-eye gesture whenever she sees me :D

Who was the last person to text you?
= diyana, i think

Who was the last person you hugged?
= i don't remember.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
= sleeping.

Parents separated/divorced/married?
= married

Last time you saw your dad?
= about half an hour ago.

What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
= just finished bathing (yes shut up all of you who bathe at 6am, i don't give a shittt.)

What is your fav color?
= black and pink

Do you prefer shoes, socks, or barefeet?
= depends.

Are you a sociable person?
= i'm different to different people, so i wouldn't know. depends.

What was the last thing you drank?
= plain water

Favorite ice cream?
= too much to name!! :D

What is your favorite dessert?
= chocs and ice cream.

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1. Would you marry for money?
eeyer, what kind of superficial bitch would i be if i did that man

2.Have you had braces?
chyah

3.Could you live without a computer?
technically,yes.but no. <-HAHAHAHAHA SHAHIRAH. I GET YOUR JOKE HEEEEHOU =D

i can't bare the mental torture mannn.

4.If you could live in any past time,where would it be?
i... wish i didn't live at all sometimes.

5.Do you drink enough water?
hell yeah. TOO much. -_-

6.Do you wear shoes in the house or take 'em off?
take them off.

7.What are your favorite fruits?
jackfruits are yay

8.What is your favorite place to visit?
nowhere in particular

9.Are you photogenic?
nope.

10.Do you dream in color or black and white?
colour.

11.Why do you take survey??
this survey?coz i'm bored.

12.Do you drink alcohol?
nope.

13.What is the most beautiful language?
i don't know.

14.Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
no, it wakes me up and i get cranky, even if it was for good intentions. haha. (btw, it's a kiss on the cheek by my parents i think, if you are thinking dirty)

15.WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
sunset. it's peaceful and it's so beautiful it makes me...sad, somehow. it's hard to explain.

16.Do you want to live until you're 100yrs old?
nope.

19.When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights switched on or off?
most of the time, on.

20.Do you believe in magic?
yeah, but because they use black magic.

22.Do you like to watch cartoons?
depends on cartoon. spongebob, needless to say.

23.At what age did you find out that?
find out wat?that i like to watch cartoons?i don't know.i just do.

24.Do you write poems?
sometimes.

25.Do you snore?
it depends. i'm weird when i sleep.

26.You sleep more on your back,front,or sides?
i think back.

27.Would you rather have a poodle or arottweiler?
i don't know what they are but i assume they're dogs, therefore, no.

28.Are you basically a happy person?
nope.

29.Are you tired?
yeah.

30.Did you drink anything with caffeine?
yeah.

32.How many land line/cellphones do you have in your house?
i don't want to count.

33.Do you get along with your parents?
kind of.

34.Do u smoke?
no.

35.Do you have a kitty?
eight.

36.Have you ever had a birthday party?
yeah. hated it.

37.What do you do when you're sad?
listen to music, mope around the house,be sad.

38. What do you need most now?
to know how to do my studies.

39.What song are you listening to now?
nothing.

40.what are you craving right now?
....i won't tell.

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this sucks. i want to forget it. but yet i don't want to forget it. i want it to happen. but it's wrong. and everyone knows it's wrong. i love it, yet i hate it. it's definitely wrong in God's eyes. it's wrong in everybody's eyes. but screw what they think. they don't matter. the only thing that matters is _______________________.

i think.

i think i need a temporary distraction to forget __________.

why does it feel so half-hearted then? one part of me wants to stick to this feeling so much, one wants to break apart from it. it's a constant war going on inside. and whenever i think of what MIGHT happen if i get distracted and forget about it, i get sad.

if only you knew.

but then again, if only you didn't.

you don't. and that's good.

garrrhhhhhh. i love you too much.

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