Saturday, October 13, 2007
don't mind the post below. it's just that, it sucks when you talk to people and they ignore you or pretend not to hear you or don't take the effort to try and listen to your crap talk.
it sucks when you feel left out.
it sucks when people are prejudiced against you for some stupid shallow reason.
this has been going on for a very long time now. in fact, since i was young.
it's all a one-way traffic.
one-way traffics SUCK.
so now, since i realise that my bouncy crazy enthusiasm turns you off, and my moodswings are weird and out of the norm and therefore untolerable, and that my fussiness over you just to prove that i give a freaking shit is being annoying, fine then.
it's too tiring to give a damn for people who don't.
i'm seriously worn out of unreturned feelings.
so, as of now, i officially declare that i do NOT care. at least, not as much as i used to.
always remember, if you don't like how someone is treating you, don't do it to others. it's just disgusting. shows a lot about you. eww.
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so anyways, results were um. yeah. like that.
english was shocking. i sucked in compre, did pretty well in summary, did average in report writing, did unexpectedly well for compo, and did average in oral.
overall average marks, almost an A. meh.
amaths was okay, just that i didn't get the logic of the teachers giving me 2 marks out of 8 for this particular question on partial fractions when my answer was exactly the same as the marking scheme.
if they add 6 more marks, i'd be able to barely scrape past an A. hmm.
two almost As seems good enough, but...
chem. the whole cohort did badly, so it was fine when i did badly too. ok well, not really. but i'm happy to know i'm not the worst.
the funny thing is that, when i got back my paper, i didn't feel any pain. perhaps it was because of all the anticipation and mental preparation of the worst to come. yes, i failed badly and i didn't feel any pain.
"How can you feel any pain when it's all you ever felt?" -an emo phrase i got somewhere
hmm. there's always next year. but sometimes the future seems bleak.
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raya's tomorrow. and i don't feel like it. i can't bare to face the
"oh! so you're sec 3? how was your results? must be good right? *gives a smile which i perceive as sinister*"
"wah! so tall ah! last time, like this *puts hand at waist level*"
"you look more and more like your mother" <-balls to that
"wah! dah slim siak! dulu gemuk!"<-when i've gained weight
and all the other endless makcik/annoying relatives' antics
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twisting beside myself @12:36 AM