Friday, November 30, 2007
i love (yes maryam, laugh at my pronounciation now won't you?) aishah for putting pics of cambodia in her blog so i can rip them.
I'll explain more later, but let the pictures do the talking for now.
Day One, 20/11/2007
Ang Kor Wat Temple

gorgeous carvings man

Day Two, 21/11/2007
ACCB and Artisans Angkor (unfortunately no pics for the latter. YET.)



Day Three, 22/11/2007
Teaching craft at Tapang Primary School. No pictures. YET. =D
Day Four, 23/11/2007
Highlight of the trip. We renovated a library there! And Aishah, Ida, Maryam and I succesfully painted two tables (both of which Joy and Chia Yi were really impressed of) for the library.
Tapang Primary's library before:

Tapang Primary's library after:

not bad eh? lol.
and how can i forget about the adorable kids?

you know, they have beautiful brown eyes and hair. most of them. 'mats with ang mor eyes'. LOL.

i think of one the guys here, the one climbing i think, will be like the Cambodian version of Gaspard Ulliel when he grows up. so pretty!

hehahouahha cute kan XD
Day Five, 24/11/2007
Tonle Sap river! once again, no pictures.not yet. =)
Dinner at Singing Tree

from left: Ida, Me(looking faggotly selambe for some reason), Siti, Aishah, Nart, EDWARD CULLEN Vannarith, Syikin, Maryam. And the one below is 'Afifah', our bus driver. HAHAHAHHA.

and Day Six, 25/11/2007 was coming back to Singapore. )=
and again, no pics. yet. boo.
will explain more later. bye!
twisting beside myself @6:57 AM
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
MARYAM! NATASYA! KIMBERLY! you owe me pictures. don't think i have forgotten. especially maryam. heoauhouaha.
hmmm i miss cambodia. i'm having this weird 'countdown the hours' thing; in fact i always do when i come back from countries that i love.
like it's 6.32PM there now, and at this time all the UG people will be assembled at the ground floor of the soria moria hotel, waiting for the cute pink bus to bring us to somewhere for dinner.
)=
the weird thing is, the trip was 6 days but it felt like 3? o_o
and normally camps are for 2 days but they feel 5. -_-
maybe because we're being tortured.but it's just so weird how time can fly and can crawl at different times
oh and as i'm saying this, it's flying at a colossal speed. i'm not over the fact that we have only one month left to the most hectic year ever. the best part is that i'm not prepared for it. -_-
one month's a hell lot of time, just that it's so little because it flies too fast.
doesn't help if you have to go to school every other day. -_-
and i don't know, at random times nowadays when reality strikes and i'm having an epiphany of how little time left we have, i'm overwhelmed with the feeling of wanting to do something to change. but change doesn't come in one day. it's a process; slow and difficult, but if you're really determined, you'd pull through.
and i'm always feeling inadequate in every aspect but changing is hard. that being said, i can't accept myself this way. everything is screaming for something-a CHANGE.
damn, i hate that word.it's a painful but powerful word. but who am i to whine when i haven't even tried? i just can sense how much pain i'd be going through in the process, that's all. next year's going to be nuts.
anyway, did you read the news? some people drowned in cambodia.
the freakiest part is, we were at that lake as well, at maybe around the same time. =D haha told you bibs, near death experiences. there are a couple more.
but thank goodness they were at Phnom Penh, although still Tonle Sap river. we were at Tonle Sap river as well, but at Siem Reap.
i pity them but i'm really irritated by the fact that they didn't wear life jackets and thought it was safe. that's really wasted.they could be alive now, damn it.

that's me being extra with the sec 2 red cross people, melina and fatihah, just to get another chance to take a picture with Vannarith, the tour guide.
He's hot isn't he? too bad he's short. but he's good-looking. :D
that's the ONLY picture i have so far. -__-
maryam, you BETTER ah. nart and kim too. i'll get those pictures, somehow.
twisting beside myself @11:52 AM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
I'M BACK FROM CAMBODIA! =D
well actually, i was back yesterday morning, but i was feeling too 'awkward at home and overwhelmed by all the technology' to update. if you know what i mean.
anyway, i need picturessss =D from natasya, kimberly, maryam and some sec 2 peoplezzz. i brought a camera, but no batteries. genius, no? but my camera sucked anyway.
to sum it up, it was the best overseas experience that i've ever had =D much better than NS.
shall reply tags, update more, post pictures and more all when i have the time. now i only have about one month left to study one whole years' worth of work
bye now!
twisting beside myself @5:36 AM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
i'm supposed to finish packing now, but i'm not. [:
i'm feeling irritated/pissed off again. but i think i know why this time.
1) i'm at the climax part of new moon, and i'm feeling bella's anxiety for edward. bloody rosalie.
2) i just had an episode in the toilet. go figure.
there feels like there's more, but i can't explain it...maybe PMS again.
and seeing that i'm not in such a good mood to write a message to everyone saying goodbye cos i'd be leaving for cambodia tomorrow for six days, i'd just write it here. goodbye. i think if i died in a plane crash or something you wouldn't give a damn anyway. whatever.
ignore that last sentence. bye.
twisting beside myself @11:48 AM
Monday, November 19, 2007
i'm leaving for cambodia in two days' time and i have not even finished packing. awesome. -_-
i'm three-quarters done,though.
today went fairly well. had exercise class thing in the morning with my mum, which i found fun but unfortunately my mother tore a muscle or something in her arm. it must have been pretty bad, because for someone with such a high threshold for pain she was complaining a lot that it hurt.
then in the afternoon i read new moon. i'm proud to say i've successfully covered about 5 chapters today, considering my disgusting reading pace :D i like jacob. he's so sweeeeet. but nothing can beat edward. (if you've read the book, please do not spoil it by telling me anything.)
then we went to johor to eat at this cafe, we're all so bored with our lives. the spagetti (sp?) was the best i've ever tasted, i swear. swensen's spagetti doesn't even come
close.it's called 'yew's cafe', by the way.
on our way to johor, it was raining and there was a traffic jam at the highway and my mother's arm hurt like crazy. you can imagine.
then halfway to jurong to pick my dad up from his clinic the rain stopped (?). Lol.
hmmmm. sorry if i sound dead. i feel dead. i don't know why. PMS i think. i just got the thing. meaning for about the first few days of the cambodia trip i won't be praying.
speaking of which.
i'm leaving for cambodia at 3am(not kidding) next tuesday morning. lool. must be at the airport at 4.15am, and the plane will take off at 6am.
it's good to know that i'm going there with a cause, not only for CIP but i'm helping kids out. and for the first time in my life i'm going to an orphanage during the holidays. haha. dream come true.
although we have not really come up with anything for the teaching the kids craft department. haha. shit. XD
hmmmmmmmmm. i'm feeling quite depressed now for reasons i don't quite understand.
and gosh, would you look at that, we have only one a half months to catch up with the year's work and more. me, actually. i didn't even touch the TYS this year. as evidenced by my brilliant EOY results. sigh. my fault. nobody else's. just mine.
k, shall stop whining here. goodbye. shall leave for cambodia in less than two days' time and i won't return till the 25th. i doubt there'll be any time to blog tomorrow.
You Need Some Yellow in Your Life |
 Yellow will make you feel happy, perky, and hyper. And with a little yellow, you will project an aura of energy. If you want attention, you've got to get a little yellow in your life! For extra punch: Combine yellow with blue or orange The downside of yellow: People associate it with sickness and deceit The consequences of more yellow in your life: You will have more mental clarity, especially when faced with difficult problems You will be protected from depression and moodiness You will be a lot less likely to burn out or feel stressed |
haha. damn right.
but yellow is so. gay. ee.
twisting beside myself @3:54 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Stereophonics - It Means Nothing Did we lose ourselves again?
Did we take in what's been said?
Did we take the time to be,
All the things we said we'd be?
So we bury hopes in sand
And my future's in my hands
It means nothing
It means nothing
You can find yourself apart
But you leave in which one you want
Coz they love you all the same
They just go by different names
Did ya fly your flag today?
Are you proud or just ashamed?
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
The sun sets in the sky
You're the apple of my eye
If the bomb goes off again
Blows my brain around the train
And I hope that I'm with you
Coz I wouldn't know what to do
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
It means nothing
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
If I haven't got you
twisting beside myself @8:23 AM
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twisting beside myself @7:24 AM
well, sergeant test was shit. as expected.
CI brought a guy friend CI who looked like one of my classmates. haha, insult to her actually.
CI was somehow trying to 'impress' friend (whom we later assumed was her boyfriend) by reminding us over and over again that we should not embarrass her in front of friend.
Well, so the test was shit because:
1) My commanding sucked. i was so nervous i sort of became blur. then the guy CI who at first i thought was nice cos he helped me a lot, later told our CI that our drills were 'fucked up'.
yes, and she actually SAID those words out loud. i was shocked.
guy CI is so hypocritical man.
gave me a sarcastic smile when i was soft and my friends couldn't hear me when i said stop hentak-kaki drill.
fannoying, to summarise how he was. the only good thing about him was that he was about my height or slightly taller, so i didn't feel intimidated. HAH.
2) during MOI, the CIs laughed because i was long-winded. like, wow. if you're not going to be encouraging, then what's the fucking point of us coming and obviously trying our BEST to please you, only to get laughed at?
stupid.
i told ida yesterday that i don't care about NPCC. but somehow failing to do well in the test.. affects me. it's really weird. but i think it's a self-esteem thing again, just as everything else is.
oh yeah, and i actually teared a bit when, after my second chance of commanding, the guy CI gave us feedback about our 'level of confidence which is tak gerek' and 'it won't be good if you keep stuttering'. i have no idea why. he was obviously referring to me.
i'm not being perasaan or something, but there's something about me that makes teachers, or people with authority in general, to pick on me. am i so freaking retarded? am i such an open book , that you can read expressions on my face so easily? do i get negative attention easily with things like my laughter and my blurness?
what is wrong with me?
fine. so it isn't the CI's fault that i sucked and he had to pick on me because i sucked. but why am i always being picked on by everyone? is it a way for everyone to acknowledge my insecurities? by using me, taking advantage of me, or picking on me?
or is it because of my parents that i'm being treated this way? i know some teachers pick on me cos of this. but sometimes i just wish that they would look at me as a normal STUDENT instead of someone's daughter. must i always stand out like a sore thumb? i like being different, but i don't want to be a freak, if you get what i mean.
it sucks.
so anyway, he was saying how soft i was and how the other three people were fine. WOW.
but i give him credit for trying to be nice, when CIs can be real assholes sometimes. and i think it was because of his presence today that made our CI actually be.. ok. i wouldn't even say harsh. we didn't even do one push up for the numerous amount of mistakes we made, for God's sake.
but anyway, the whole thing sucks. and this sounds frigging weird but by not being able to pass sergeant test( or at least i feel like it) sort of... hurts.more so than exams. maybe it's because you see people being disappointed in front of your face, while exams are counted as your personal achievement.
but to put in so much effort, and actually see them happy sometimes, you'd find it hard to replicate it for future situations. i'm not perfect.
you know, i think i don't like NPCC cos it's given me a lot of emotional baggage. arhhhhh. bye.
oh you know, gaspard ulliel's coming to cambodia on the 26th and we're leaving on the 25th, haha, WOW.
twisting beside myself @6:57 AM
Saturday, November 17, 2007

too pretty. just too freaking pretty for a moustache. and stephenie meyer, seriously, there's no other dude i know more gorgeous than gaspard or JRM. edward's supposed to look MATURE! what's with the 'nobody less than 21 years old' thing???
wtf.
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my dad is more random that yours aishah.
just now while we were out eating.
me: abah, do you think i'm bipolar?
dad: bipolar? no, you're a polar bear.
-__________________-"
and he brought me home after tuition a few days back, and i heard screaming when he switched on the radio.
me: ABAH?? WHAT IS THIS??
dad: metallica.
haha. 42 year old man.
and he has 10000000000 many other weird antics. i think i got my crazy from him. hehaw.
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SERGEANT TEST TMR! i can't care less, to be truthful to myself. read aishah's blog for how she (we both actually) feel about npcc. i'm not going to waste my time typing about something so dumb here.
i didn't study for it, by the way. hohohoho. i don't care.
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sorry i didn't reply your tags, shall reply asap. i'm just too lazy. haha. bye. :D
twisting beside myself @5:19 PM
http://perezhilton.com/?cat=434wtf? he's still SMexy. he can't have any facial hair. too pretty.
twisting beside myself @6:39 AM
Friday, November 16, 2007
O_O
do you want to see something very disturbing? nothing sexual. just disturbing.
http://forums.vr-zone.com/showthread.php?t=204355there, go.
and i have to exercise now or my mum will bising if she comes back. at 10.51pm. yes, i'm a creature of the night. (vampire) goodbye y'all
twisting beside myself @2:51 AM
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
hello there! my first real post since the change of blogskin :D
you may be wondering why, but i think there are a few reasons for that.
1) there's nothing much to update about
2)there's not much time to update (haha whatever, i haven't even hit the books these holidays)
3)i am very lazy to update
haha, the usual -_-
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i've just been thinking yesterday.
it's strange how i seem to be the inspiration for some people, when i always feel hopeless for myself.
it's strange how i always seem to be happy and laugh-y, when it only makes me more empty inside.
it's strange how i really like putting a smile on people's faces, and (according to them) i am effective of doing that when they feel down, but i can't do that for myself.
don't get me wrong, this isn't another one of my numerous emo posts;moreover, a reflection, a self-evaluation.
it's just ironic and strange, you know? (notice i didn't use funny, cos it's really not funny, laughable maybe, but NOT funny)
like i'm always so optimistic for people, but pessimistic about myself. (heha which reminds me 'For a Pessimist I'm Pretty Optimistic' by Paramore is veh nice)
hmm.
and i realise i REALLY have not much time to study for these holidays (yes, i'm over the hopelessness-after-bad-results phase)
i mean, i'm going to cambodia on the 20th to 26th for some npcc cip trip thinger, and that's only days away and i have not started studying (except maybe 1 and a half topics of a maths tys, and even then i don't know how to do some questions).
not to mention, i've got tuition and all the TYS homework to do. tell me, is it possible to complete 4 ten-year-series books ( e maths, a maths, bio, chem) by the end of this holiday?
answer: only if you mug like a dog every single day and are extra determined.
it bothers me that i'm supposed to be determined to prove to my teachers that i'm not a loser, and yet i'm just sitting and lazing around and being damn complacent.
oh yes, and i've forgotten about history and lit, BOTH of which are content-based subjects. history heavier, of course.
haha, and i've written a 'what to study for the holidays' list way before extended studies, but of course it just stays in a pristine condition (no cancellations whatsoever), pasted on my white board.
gah... i have to buck up. i mean it. i'm hovering around the bottom of my class (literally i am, i just checked my class position the other day and i wasn't shocked because i had expected it, i was more of disgusted.) and i need to sky rocket up to the top ten, however that's possible.
and the only way to do that is to do very well for the first term, so self-doubt and hopelessness are things that are SO from the past, and i can just really continue to improve from there.
but getting into it, trying to change, that's the hard part, you know? it's so easy to relapse into my effed up old ways.
okay, sorry. didn't mean to type all that, it just came to mind.
and i know you're wondering, what kind of idiot am i, complaining and whining endlessly when some people out there don't even have homes or are starving to death? (i might be envious of the latter, seeing that their bodies are much nicer than mine, all skin and bones)
the thing is, i KNOW there are other people out there are having more problems than me. mine aren't even proper PROBLEMS to begin with. exams and occasional arguments with my parents and normal teenage insecurities.
which is why i try my best to be optimistic about everyone and helping them out, and maybe one day go to some orphanage or something. (haha, i think i've just answered my own question at the start of the post)
and sometimes, when life seems very hopeless and bleak, i try to make myself feel better by saying that there are people who are much less fortunate out there. that i am being whiny in a HOUSE, and that i still have FAMILY MEMBERS whom i can rely on. some people don't even have that.
also, when i'm feeling down about my exams, and ask myself what i did (or did not do, in this case) to deserve all this, i try and think about other people. what did some do to get raped? what did some do to get involved in wars where they are being killed for no reason? what did some people do to have spouses involved in adultery (this may seem very trivial compared to the rest, but i still consider it as a Huge Pain. especially when someone i know recently found this out.)
optimism....
meh. ok honestly i don't know where this post is going, so i might as well end it here. goodbye people! and if you have hopelessness issues as i do, just remember you're better off than some other people.
twisting beside myself @11:00 AM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
changed blogskin. finally.
and i'm too lethargic and not in the mood to update now. goodbye.
twisting beside myself @4:02 PM
now i'll do quizzes, cos i feel like it =)
You Are An Attention Seeker |
 You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then. You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing. And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement. You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine. You come across as: Friendly and interesting People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are! |
hehaho to the modest bit.
You Belong in Rome |
 You're a big city soul with a small town heart Which is why you're attracted to the romance of Rome Strolling down picture perfect streets, cappuccino in hand And gorgeous Italian people - could life get any better? |
o really?
What You Really Think Of Your Friends |
 Nobahday )= is your soulmate. You truly love Aishah. You consider Bibah your true friend. You know that Ida is always thinking of you. You'll remember Atifa for the rest of your life. You secretly think ME is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times. You secretly think that Joanna is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker. You secretly think that Azura is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Azura changes lovers faster than underwear. You secretly think Atiqah is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Atiqah has a hidden internet romance. |
HAHAHAHHAHA TO EVERYTHING. and no offense about the soulmate part, just that really, nobody reminds me of white. and aishah's red cos red is a 'serious' colour (haha), ida just reminds me of yellow, atifa green, bibah orange (haha self-explainatory), i'm chocolate, and joanna's vanilla cos vanilla sounds.. sophisticated and i have no idea what is a saltline cracker but it sounded very atiqah-ish.oh and azu's the meat. HAHA.
=D
yup.
You Are 36% Girly |
 You are a pretty hardcore tomboy, and a very free spirit. Gender roles be dammed, you like to do things your way. |
loving the last sentence ^_^
Your Life is Rated PG-13 |
 Your life isn't totally scandalous, but you definitely don't shy away from adult themes! |
see aishah, i'm not innocent =D
You Are 60% Obsessive |
 You're somewhat obsessive, especially when it comes to a couple things (like horrifying thoughts or cleanliness). As long as your quirks aren't interrupting your life, it's all good. |
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm?
You Are 76% Good |
 You are a good person. You do the best you can to be ethical, fair, and moral. And as you know, being a good person means making hard decisions... and following them through. If you're confronted with an ethical dilemma, you will usually do the right thing. Of course you do slip up. No one's perfect. But you do your best to correct your missteps. You are also probably: incredibly honest, especially with yourself Right now you are on track to being: A respected leader To be a better person: Be kind to someone who is not very kind to you |
o_o
You Always Hold a Grudge |
 If someone wrongs you, you aren't likely to forgive them. You figure they've showed their true colors. You've been known to cut people out of your life pretty frequently. And maybe you've even sought revenge a couple times! |
quite... true. hah.
You Are 74% Creative |
 You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word. You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times. |
well that's...good to know, HAH
ONE MORE
Your Inner Color is Blue |
 Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. |
haha, i don't think this is the first time they said i'm blue. I'M PINK AND BLACK, DAMNIT. PINK AND BLACK. ror.
maybe one last one
You Are Most Like Liv Tyler |
 “I don't want to spend so much time obsessing about myself.” |
AWESOME. HEHO.
OKAY, would you look at that, i just wasted 1 hour of my precious time doing quizzes. i could have been STUDYING (see what i mean when i said i can't do it, like i did in the post below.heho.)
ah, good night
twisting beside myself @12:23 AM
HURRAY! SCHOOL'S OUT! =D
boo. time to study. -__-YAY! STUDYING IS FUN!!! =D
boo, studying is pressurising -_-mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i want to change my blogskin but i'm too lazyyyyyyyyy
moooooooooooooooo i want to study but i can't seem to d0 it (haha if you get what i mean)
boooooooooooooooooo i want to update properly, but there are a few problems
a) WHAT to update about, when everyday from now on till the end of december's going to be freaking routined
b) IF i have the time to update
on a lighter note, though,
a)
I'M GOING TO MCR CONCERT YAYIEEEEEEEEEEEEE. although, i don't know when we're getting the tix. ahah. (psst, i heard so
Mebody is going too, but she's sitting, not standing. don't get me wrong, i'm over the whole phase, but that doesn't mean she's still not my eye candy XD)
b)today, which was the last day of school this year, actually went well.
(i)so
Mebody was in a good mood so she treated me and diyana verrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy nicely. haha, typical
(ii) MATHS WAS EXCEPTIONALLY FUN. we were doing matrixes with the music on (yes, mdm raudhah actually asked us if we wanted to hear some music) and rachael's laughter just cracks me up, which cracks diyana up, so the three of us were like 'HEAOUHOAUHOAHAHAHHAHAHAHAOEEHEHHEAHEHHEHA'. yup typical (:
(iii) my mum forgave me. yay? (don't ask about what, i'm not saying)
c)i'm looking forward to the cambodia trip with ida and aishah! although i'm quite worried, because we haven't composed any songs for the kids and we haven't actually planned what to do there, except for our own selfish comforts (wearing nail polish, sleeping over in each other's rooms at night, etc)
and there would be a part d) to this lighter note section but seeing how things are going to be tomorrow i don't think so )=
wth man, aishah's parents don't let her go. and atifa said she heard only maryam's coming. might as well don't go D:
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
okay bye, i'll go look for a more decent blogskin nowww :D
twisting beside myself @12:14 AM
Thursday, November 01, 2007
well, malay o levels were prettay fine.
paper 1 was partly screwed, because
1) i started actually writing down something at 8.15am, and ended at about 8.50am (bad time management.)
2) my cliche story about some person who got influenced to steal was very badly developed. only managed to write emo phrases at the last part, hopefully the teacher marking is lenient (sp?) and gets what i'm trying to say. heha.
paper 2 was doable, but my mind was so filled with thoughts of paper 1 that i couldn't really focus. again. mahhhhh. and i shouldn't have been complacent about peribahasa because it wasn't as simple as i thought it would be.
the only good thing about paper 2 was that i could relate to the person in the compre XD the one about being kaku around high-class people because of the way he eats or something.honestly, i eat like a freaking baby at home. -__-
and! this week i got really pissed at my chemistry teacher, because i had a fever during the day of my bio SPA and decided to come to school later because i didn't want to miss it, and it was during her lesson and she was pms-ing and scolded me for being sick and not getting an MC
:) i swear i needed that, because my fever didn't already make me feel bad enough.
i hope to get at least an A2 for malay.worst come to worst, B3. but no A1 )))): thanks to my brilliantly done oral and listening compre.
-_____________________-. sigh.
you know what's creepy? i just realised i wasted the whole of october doing absolutely nothing, and i only have two months to catch up on the whole years' work and more. yay?
-_____________________-.
oh, another weird/amazing thing this week: the day i had fever, which was the night before malay o's,i took
11 panadol pills in
24 hours.heha, record ^_^ everyone around me said i was going to get liver damage. but if i died, you'll be happy now, won't you? of overdose of panadol. woooooooooow.
-_____________________-.
well goodebai now, i have to complete 100000 questions for a maths by tomorrow about circles and their equations. i think that whole chapter is cool, actually. hurray.
twisting beside myself @10:02 PM