Tuesday, May 27, 2008
There's this feeling which has been bothering me since i was, i dunno, five?
But it never actually intensified till puberty struck.
And for the past few weeks, it has resurrected and reared its VERY ugly head again.
And for the past few days, i've been feeling as though my body has been..Engulfed by this feeling.
I sound like a victim of counselling now, don't i?
-_-
Well just so you know, i've been feeling this particular..feeling, many more times this year than any other year in secondary school. I can never understand why.
Aishah's theory is that we're too stressed that it 'triggers other hormones'? Perhaps.
But oh well. -_- I guess i'll just have to ____________________________________________ nyehehehe
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So, i practically ransacked my cupboard for something decent to wear for the band concert which is coming soon. (ehem, i have lots of clothes but can't wear most of them. uh, i WONDER why's that. .-.)
In the end, i found something decent to wear! I don't mean to boast but i think it's really awesome :D (well, knowing me, you'd know what's my definition of 'really nice'. PS: ida says i'm 'scene' not 'emo' hahahahahha -_-)
The only small, tiny, miniscule, microscopic problem though, is that i look like this wearing it
And no, i'm not exaggerating.
And now, i'm probably going to get so depressed because of how i look and thus, the vicious cycle which has plagued my (almost) sixteen years of living
It is so very ironiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiicccccccccccccccccccc
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I told my mother about Aishah and Ida's plan to jog everyday in school, be it recess or after school, and that i'm following them.
"Mama, my friends who are slim but think they are fat want to jog everyday at school, so i'm following them."
"What?? You see! People who are slim want to run, and my fat daughter doesn't even do anything!"
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pffffffffft damn you food. Why, WHY, must i love you so much?
I mean, living without chocs is like living without... without no air. *starts singing jordin sparks and chris brown song*
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stupid weight issues. If only i'd just LISTEN to mum when i was young, and not give the excuse that (this is something to do with that feeling above)
pffffffffffft.
okay i shall stop my vomit-enducing whinings and self-pitying here and do something bout it. Good day y'all.
Oh and by the way.... BoyslikeGirls did a cover of a Frou Frou song HAHAHAHAHA
and here's the *beats chest five times and clears throat* original version. Seriously, i don't hate boyslikegirls, it's just that nobody can cover Imogen Heap. Nobody.
twisting beside myself @1:10 PM
