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Bill Kaulitz is teh seks. <3
I also wish for world peace, end of poverty,happiness and justice for everyone. :]
You seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, he looks like a man in the first part of this video! SWOON!
And i'm quite happy with some things now. Some confusions have more or less been sorted out, and finally there's PEACE.
Alrighty i'll eff off now, not even supposed to be here but i just can't resist Bill, y'know. ;)
twisting beside myself @2:55 AM
Monday, September 15, 2008
Strategize and Anesthetize
Five weeks. Five weeks is all i have before something huge is happening; before i determine my own fate.
Five weeks to prepare, like how soldiers prepare their arms before fighting a war. Wars are always intimidating.The question is, do you have what it takes?
Five weeks to the most important thing in four years of my life.
And in these five weeks there should not be any distractions. Just me, God, and the books.
So, i'm setting some rules for myself. I'll challenge myself and see if i'll break them or not. Hopefully, the latter. :
1) No more thinking about distracting things, e.g __________________________ because ALL. It ever does/ever will do is make me feel more negative about myself. What has happened is fate, let it go and move on.
2) No more using the comp for 1029348184 hours surfing up bill and tokio hotel. I'm putting a picture of them on my calculator as a symbol of my undying love for them (-_-), without wasting my time expressing it.
3) FOCUS. What's coming ahead is my future. Nothing is standing in my way except myself.
Things i'll need for support. I can't do this on my own :
1) God.
2) My family members.
3) My friends.
4) The other sane and disciplined side of me that has rarely reared its head since last year. Please, wherever you are. Come out. I need you now.
Taking (what i hope to be) a permanent hiatus till the end of this. War.
Until then, tata. And all the best to the rest of you too.
twisting beside myself @1:51 PM
Hahaha "Unicorn? I don't know what's that."
"OH vampires! Yes i love vampire movies."
Eurgh. So annoyingly cute for what. -_-
Hahaha towards the end Miley Cyrus was like 'Bye Ben' hahaha dude, you've got the name wrong siakxszxszxszxszx
k bye -_-
(atifa: this ain't over nyahahahahaha)
twisting beside myself @3:00 AM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Overdue!
1. The first person to tag you is?
Trickster aka Tipa :D
2. Your relationship with him/her?
Good friends
3. Your 5 impression of him/her?
intelligent, profound, cute, creative, uh.. A.C.N-like? XD
4. The most memorable thing he/she done for you?
Post beautiful videos of beautiful people in her blog for me to ogle at :3
5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
"I think you'll say more than just ONE 'ich liebt dich' to bill kaulitz" hahahaha something along those lines.
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
Aiyo. No way ah. I'm straight. I love this guy
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things she/he needs to improve on?
For God's sake she will never ever be -_-
I got inspiration from aishah. Attitude/face/personality must be like the guy above ^^ =)
8. IF he/she becomes you enemy, you will?
Never be able to live peacefully with myself, hah. I treasure my good friends okay.
9.IF he/she becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
my stupid intolerance. Bleh.
10. The most desired thing you like to do with him/her now?
youtube beautiful bill :)
11. Your overall impression of him/her?
Cool and mysterious.. haha tipa seriously
12. How do you think people around me feel about her?
cool and mysterious and emotional. AND CUTE! =)
13. The characters you love of yourself are?
I kind of like making people feel happy and better, i laugh a lot?, I have a huge capacity for love
14. ON the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
A bit too sensitive and affected easily, i sometimes tend to overlook people's good qualities and focus on their flaws until something like the eugene episode happens, i'm pessimistic, i really need to be more confident and i severely lack self-discipline
15. The most ideal person you wanna be?
I don't. I sieve out good points and qualities from everyone and put them together and that's what and who i want to be.
16. For people who cares and like you, say something to them?
You guys rock because i may come across as nice but i think i'm a really bad person. Thanks for tolerating my embarrassing laughter, particularly in public places. Sorry if i ever disappointed/hurt you guys unintentionally or intentionally. Just thank you for being so accepting and tolerant with people like me (:
5 People i'm gonna tag to do this survey:
Not that many people visit my blog -_- But kapoor.hahahaha.
And by the way, end of prelims= start of shitmuggen. -_-
twisting beside myself @4:00 PM
Friday, September 12, 2008
10 videos but not quite :)
Hah. Gotta love the face <3<3<3
1:23 or somewhere round there. I'm not a pervertic person who checks out certain parts of the opposite sex, but is that a cute butt or WHAT? :D
VMAS! I've been trying to look all over for Bill's FULL thank-you tribute (which was about all of thirty seconds) but can't find it nowhere :/ at least, maybe not now.
People who love that cookie donut vid in tipa's blog (although i highly doubt anybody but me watched it) should love this
This one too. And i especially love this song. Hahahahhahaaha.
HAHAHAHAHA ATIFA, WATCH WHAT TOM DOES IN THIS VIDEO HAHAHAHHAHA.
Some arse threw something at bill when he was on stage. How rude -_- (and check out his expression before and after hahahaha)
like the first few pics.. Heh :D
okay that's about it (for today). More obsessing tomorrow. End of prelims y'all.
twisting beside myself @2:32 AM
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
YYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
http://www.mtv.com/ontv/vma/2008/best-new-artist/
:D :D :D :D :D
Guess who contributed ;D
twisting beside myself @5:53 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Melancholic song. Reminded me of things which don't even deserve to be called memories. But anyway, 95% of the lyrics are true.
We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear.
I'm such an escapist. Snap back to reality, damn it. Stop thinking about things that won't happen.
twisting beside myself @2:49 PM
Today
-Is the first day of Ramadhan! The amount of saliva in my mouth fluctuates.
-IS BILL AND TOM KAULITZs' BIRTHDAY! HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DUDES! Bill - You're just drop dead and i love the androgyny thing going on and Tom - You're so coooooool. I hope i meet the both of you one day.
I like this fan video.
This one too. :D
Yesterday
Yesterday was one of the weirdest days of my life.
My mother pissed the hell out of me in the morning.
I was studying chemistry, looking at the types of oxides on my table when suddenly i saw a picture of Bill and a few seconds later, Tokio Hotel. I looked up and saw my dad pressing his index finger against his lips.
HE BOUGHT ME THE FREAKIN' CD!!!
So obviously, other than Atifa and Aishah who tried and succeeded in cheering me up(thanks guys), that cheered me up a hell lot.
I hated my mother for all of a few hours, which is an improvement for me. When i argue with people i usually hate them much longer than that...
Also, i completely got over some things which i was supposed to get over millions of years ago but didn't. I don't know, i just suppose it's fate and some people simply aren't worth your time anyway.
And i've also come to realise that i have left an impact on that person's life, no matter how hard that person tries to deny it... But it doesn't matter. One life lesson that i've learnt from all this is, if you can't change something, just accept it and move on because the deed is done and there's nothing left.
Besides getting over my anger for my mother and that person, i also received a message from Tique. Apparently she has the hots for Bill too. (She initially thought he was a chick hahahahahah)
Oh well. This could all be a blessing from God for this holy month. But i'm sinning as i'm typing here. I'm not supposed to be on the computer :D
This will probably be my last post till.. I don't know. End of prelims? Olevels? We'll see.
twisting beside myself @3:08 AM
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