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I also wish for world peace, end of poverty,happiness and justice for everyone. :]
Oh God.
I've got a bio test tomorrow and i'm not prepared! So i'm going to take the short cut- my textbook has this cd which has the whole textbook in it.
I'm going to do some e-learning now! =D=D=D=D -_-
Anyway the kids don't hate me, they just didn't know what 'don't mind' means and thought i said 'Can i come watch TV with you?' Their answer was obviously a yes.
They're really nice and i'm feeling happy here, with the exception of the long school hours (can be up to 5.15pm from 9am). Thank goodness i have a friend already, and she seems really nice. The British Indian girl from my bio class.
The weather has significantly improved too, with the lowest temperature being slightly less than ten. Better than a negative temperature. Haha.
And i had a hilarious conversation with someone yesterday. It was break time and me and my friend were hanging around some other people, and there was this other pretty British Indian (There are loads of them in my college) girl. She noticed i was a new student.
Her: Are you new?
Me: Yeah.
(We tell each other our names)
Her: Are you indian?
Me: (speaking normally) Uh, no. I'm malay, it's just that i have indian blood.
Her: Your accent is wicked!
Me: O_o HAHAHA! I don't have an accent!
LOL, i mean i've been told i sound malay before, but i don't think i have an accent. Do i?
Anyway i should have replied," No, i think YOUR accent is wicked!"
-__________________________-
Anyway i have to go now, i desperately need to study biology. Hope to see you on msn this weekend! =)
twisting beside myself @3:53 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
i mean, i don't want to have expectations but you can't stop an intuition now, can you?
twisting beside myself @6:26 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Bored of doing maths homework. ):
Managed to catch tips on msn just now. Haha, hopefully that can happen again this weekend.
This is quite a stupid reason to feel sad but i just wish bill didn't turn from hot guy to hot girl-looking person. He's still gorgeous to me, but he's bordering on freaking drag now!
what's wrong with youuu. why can't you just stick with your nice short hair and not wear girly stuff.
has anybody told you that you look quite girly sometimes?
eurghhh why. whyyyyyyyyyyy. If you want to grow long hair and wear make up and nail polish and lots of accessories, at least put on some muscles!!!
):
You know it's pictures like that which convinces me that he's not straight.
By the way, come to think of it, i lied when i said i felt nothing about my olevel results. It's neutral but leaning towards disappointment.
Alright, i lied again. I'm disappointed.
Well I dunno, it sucks when you have an intuition which didn't come through. Especially when it has been lingering around for a while. It doesn't have an impact on the college i go to because i am already in a college, but it is something i thought i'd achieve for myself.
Ah, here we go again. Disappointment. What was it that i said about expectations again?
*looks at post below before first jan*
I'm going nuts.
twisting beside myself @10:20 PM
And finally, the results.
Someone whom i was on the phone with (kinda forgot who.. sorry) told me the results would come out on monday, 2pm.
So that would be monday, 6am here in london. I found myself conscious of the time. My brother called, saying he called my grandmother and got no news so far.
Since my school starts at 9am, i was in the bus at about 8.45am. Then i alighted at 8.55am, and got a phone call from my brother.
Him, sounding happy : Guess how much you got.
Me: What? Good? Bad?
Him: Guess.
Me, half screaming: TELL ME! *really expects him to say 8, because for some reason that number has been playing around in my mind for quite a while*
Him: Ten.
Me: Oh? Okay. *finds myself feeling nothing*
He then tells me what i scored for which subject, but i didn't really take notice.
Then i messaged my mum, dad, aishah, atifa, and called a couple of people when i was in school, messaged a couple more people when i was back at my host family's house, and got more calls from my family, who were over the moon for me.
But me? I had no feeling.
You can just tell me that breakfast is ready and i'll give you the same "oh, okay" reply.
I can't say i'm disappointed; judging from the way i slacked and slept as much as i wanted and only studied at the last minute, this is quite an achievement. But i can't say i'm happy either, i really hoped to get a single digit.
What's more, when you're one number away from a single digit. -_-
Well, here's the breakdown of what i scored for which subject, according to a message from my mum :
EL - A1
History- A2
Combined Humans - A2
Maths - A1
Add Math - A2
Chemistry - B3
Biology - A2
HML - B3
and thus the total of 10.
I'm particularly disappointed in my chemistry. I can't believe i slogged my arse off for that subject and got a B3, while i slacked in bio and didn't even study properly the day before, and got an A2. I just don't believe it.
And honestly, i thought i'd nail Add math and screw Emaths. I did okay for both, but it seems like the grades should have been swapped -_-
I'm quite surprised for english though.Hahahaha. Must have been the Bill compo xD Haha Bill Kaulitz, thanks for the inspiration xD
So overall, 6 As and 2 Bs. My whole family is happier than me. I'm just like, Meh. I have this white board in my house where all my books are. On it i wrote in huge handwriting "L1R5 AIM: LESS THAN OR EQUALS TO (the sign) 10"
So, i got the maximum aim for my L1R5. I suppose i don't feel anything because i'm neither disappointed or happy. Just, well. Meh-ed.
On a lighter note, though, my aunt who's very proud of me told me this is what i achieved despite my efforts being last minute, so there's a greater potential in me. Hmm, i hope so. -_-
I just hope cambridge, oxford or kings' college university bothers to look at this.
By the way, my parents left for singapore yesterday. My mother was crying and my father was tearing. It was quite sad. After they left for the airport and my mother said she'll call before the flight to singapore, i messaged her saying i was really tired and needed to sleep. But she still called me anyway because she "needed to hear my voice one more time" (she was practically choking on her words as she said that).
Now i'm really alone in london, except my host family, my few friends at school and my brother in croydon.
I just hope i lead my life better than i did in secondary school.
(Ps: Congratulations to all of you who have achieved what you wanted :D I still have to reply your tags (which i do read btw!), your emails, and tag your blogs, and everything else. Soon, i promise.)
twisting beside myself @4:19 AM
Saturday, January 10, 2009
I'm feeling better... quite. Tomorrow my parents are leaving for singapore. Arghh.
Anyway guys, I will blog properly/check my email and reply you guys properly/check and tag your blogs/everything else SOON! I PROMISE!
And olevel results come out on monday i heard.
GALALALALALALALALALAA ALL THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!
twisting beside myself @6:46 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Frozen (in every sense of the word)
Hello all, i'm in a different place right now.
Clue:
-_-
Well, i actually had wanted to blog a super hyper post about it a few days ago, but i really am in no mood to do that today.
So basically, here are a few things i've learnt in these few days i've been here:
1) London is, please excuse my language, FUCKING COLD.
When i touched down on first jan the pilot announced it was 3 degrees.
The next few days it was alright, perhaps between 0 to 5 degrees.
But the past few days, today included, were horrible. One of the staff at my school (which i shall talk about later) commented that this is the worst winter in about ten years.
I mean really, when the fountain near your school has frozen water on it, you can tell it's sub-zero.
And unfortunately, it has been sub-zero for the past few days. It was even on the cover of a British newspaper yesterday that the temperature here has dipped to even -10 degrees, but thankfully that's in other parts of UK and not in London.
2) Winter is dry. Dryyyy. Which means your skin is dry. Which means extreme itchiness, which means a mosturizer is very necessary. (Unfortunately i forgot to apply it today -_-)
3) If anyone of you is planning to come to London soon, let me recommend a shopping place for you that is cheap, good, nice,has PLENTY of sizes and has EVERYTHING - Primark. (Yes Atifa, sooo totally agree with you)
4) It is excruciatingly difficult to find halal places to eat in London. So i find myself eating kebabs, HOUMUS (spelling?) which is just delicioussss, and the food my host family(who are Moroccon) eats.
5) I'd like to bust a myth my mother told me about, which is that London has girls who are plummer than me.
Ehem, at least in Singapore i thought i had the advantage of height as compared to the papans.
Here, the girls are tall AND papan. And fashionable too (which isn't always a good thing, because Oh my God, who the hell wears miniskirts and tights when the temperature is EFFIN SUB ZERO???)
-_-
Ok so now i'm actually going to talk about what happened.
Okay crap, i can't find the USB port to transfer the pictures from my camera and i really don't care to open up my bags just to look for it, so perhaps i'll post the pictures another day.
Life in general
The reason why i said i was in no mood to blog hyperly about all the things i've done, even though i have some very juicy things to talk about, is because of one thing.
I'm homesick.
London is freezing, Singapore is hot. I prefer neither extremes, i want something in the middle but unfortunately that will only come during summer here, where the temperature is fine.
I miss the efficiency of things in Singapore.
I miss being one phonecall or message away from my family and friends. I still am, but at a very high cost.
Anyway, my school is located very near Victoria station.The house i'm living in isn't very far from there, only two tube stops.
Where i'm residing
As some of you may already know, i'm staying with a host family. To be more specific, the head of the family is an Imam.
Yes, you didn't read wrongly. Imam. He and his wife are from Morocco. And he's really good-looking and has a janggut but NOT datuk (LOL to atifa.)
Haha and yes, they have sons. Three hot sons (I'm not joking, they're all really good-looking) .
Aged 5,7 and 10.
xD
The first day i came they were very nice and talkative. Despite their parents being Moroccon and having problems with English, they are really the opposite. They're cute and have a nice British accent!
But over the days i thought they hated me. Whenever i came home they'll give me this 'omg, it's you again' look. But i guess i'm just being paranoid. I mean, they're KIDS. they don't really hate people, do they?
And i just had dinner with them. They talked to me. Haha. Yay for me.
Omg what kind of LSE is this where i need even kids to accept me. -_- I guess i just don't want to live with people who hate me in a totally foreign country, that's all.
Abbey college
School's alright. Today's my second day and yesterday was my first.
Ah, here's another thing i miss about Singapore: The prospect of having to wear home clothes and make up to school was attractive at first. But after a while i think i quite dislike it. Why? Because having a uniform saves you the hassle of choosing what to wear everyday and what accessories and shoes to pair it with. (Yes all of that are very important to me,i brought a whole effin bag of accessories -_-)
Yesterday i made friends with a couple of Vietnamese and Chinese new students. Sadly there weren't any Singaporeans or Malaysians, i was the only one.
This internal admissions officer whom i shall just call Mr Robert took us and gave us an introduction to things about the school. We had to get a lot of things settled and since some students have not taken the tube before, he made us take the tube to lots of places and do some things there. Not the best thing to do, it was freezing cold. :\
I like the Vietnamese people i met. They were very friendly. So were the Chinese people. :D
Today i started having lessons. My whole biology class is made up of Indian British people, five unfriendly boys and one nice girl. It was pretty awkward, because THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'M IN A CO-ED SCHOOL SINCE EFFIN KINDERGATEN.
Then i had chem, where LUCKILY, i was alone.
Today was pretty miserable for me, to be honest. Overall i wish i entered my brother's school in Croydon. Then we will be in the same school, i'll join his clique of friends, and i'll actually have a family member i can contact when i feel down or need something. And this reinforces my subtle hate for you, you stupid life-ruiner. When i didn't say i love you, i meant it.
GALALALLALALALAAL this is a very, very brief post from what i had actually intended to write. But i'm annoyingly still jetlagged, it's 7:10pm here right now and 3:10am there in Singapore, and i'm lethargic.
I better sleep early tomorrow because i have school till 5.15pm. Good day to all of you, i miss you guys. Meh.
(And atifa i still owe you a reply to your email, which i shall read after i lie down for a while)
Lol.
twisting beside myself @7:15 PM
Thursday, January 01, 2009
What are you listening to now?
Someone's in the toilet, and the room i'm in is very near the toilet, so.... yeah.
The person is bathing though.Haha.
What is your favourite number?
2
What was the last thing you ate?
Kus kus (spelling? It's a moroccan dish)
When was the last time you smiled?
when aishah said something about 'sunni' and 'shiah' on msn. i didn't smile, i exploded. -_-
How is the weather right now?
cold but not freezing (thank God)
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mom ):
What is your worst habit?
exploding (though that's SERIOUSLY been toned down now that i'm in a co-ed school), burping and farting (sometimes silently, sometimes not) -__-
Do you smoke?
nay.
Do you drink?
nope.
When was the last time, if ever, blacked-out from drinking?
let's see, i drank coffee a couple of nights ago and was supposed to stay up to study, but then i ended up sleeping.
-_-
Hair colour?
black with brownish highlights (no,i don't have pink hair extensions................yet =D)
Eye colour?
dark brown
Do you wear contacts?
only to see clearly but those coloured ones freak me out
Favourite Holiday?
i'm happy as long as i can stay at home and sleep in.
Favourite Month?
December =)
Have you ever cried for no reason?
Not really.
What was the last movie you watched?
haha, mean girls. very long ago, i know.
Favourite day of the year?
don't really belive in that.
Are you too shy to ask someone out?
...Yes. Except friends though. Hahah.
Last advice you received?
aishah is singing to SNSD says:
look at my face.. U WILL
HAHAH. not exactly advice but encouraging thing.
What was the highlight of your weekend?
Being able to sleep in. =)
Chocolate or Vanilla?
you think? -_-
What is the last text message you received?
"Haha k i'll be on soon. I'm downloading the new msn and it's taking FOREVER.Gimme bout an hour k. Btw, i wasnt down, i was just saving sms money! Haha motorola counts by pages, u see. K see u soon on msn!"
HAHAH sorry tips, the question asked for it, not me.
What is the last message you sent?
"Hey can come online now? :) im online and so are the other two."
Who was the last person to call you?
Mom
what books are you reading?
no time, so the only ones are my textbooks -__- lol.
When was the last time you slept in someone’s bed?
everyday! i'm sleeping in someone else's house.
Favourite movie?
white chicks!!!
Favourite football team?
too girly to indulge in that stuff, lol
What were you doing before this?
laughing at toilet brush jokes concerning a*** on msn, with the superhero kids
Any pets?
many, many cats (i gave up counting HAHA)
Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. (does that come under butter?)
Dogs or cats?
cats =D
Favourite flowers?
roses
Have you ever loved someone?
i thought i did. I think i still do, but not really.
If you get what i mean.
Who would you like to see right now?
superhero kids!!! i just cried (out of laughter) because of the stuff we say on msn! xD
Are you still friends with people from Kindergarten?
forgot most of them, lol. Except diy.
Have you ever fired a gun?
haha yeah. NPCC ehem. lawl.
What website do you frequently visit?
blogs
If you could be with someone right now, who would it be?
=]
How many pillows do you sleep with?
currently, three.
Are you missing someone?
YAA. :O
Do you have a tattoo?
wish i did. but no. religious reasons.
What is the most unique thing about you?
Sometimes i crave for company, but sometimes i just want to be alone. Something i recently discovered.
Has anyone ever asked you if you were retarded?
They don't ask it, they just say it.LOL. As a joke of course.
Who was the last person you were in a fight with?
I DON'T FIGHT BABE =D at least, not physically. hehehe.
Where do you spend the majority of your time?
currently, my host family's house. haha.
How many texts have you sent/received today?
don't count babe. (don't mind me sounding like a mat, i just miss speaking malay, that's all)
Are you hated or a hater?
more of a hater.
How tall are you?
169-170cm.
Who has been the most influential person in your life?
well to be honest, my grandmother. for a lot of reasons. don't know how i can live without her.
What song are you totally sick of?
those that sound along the lines of secondhand serenade's songs (haha tips i agree.)
Who are you totally sick of?
nobody. i've been quite at peace with myself and other people since i've been in london, thank God.
If you could buy anything, what would it be?
i'm not sure. i just love shopping random things o_O haha.
who do you spend the most time with?
now, my host family. haha.
How do you deal with stupid people?
i don't discriminate. haha. just treat them as a human being i guess.
Do people take advantage of you?
there were instances in my life, yeah.
What show on TV do you always turn off?
the hills.
What cell phone are you dying to have?
i'm contented with the one i have as long i can call and text people easily. haha.
Who was the first boy/girl you fell in love with?
forgot. was in kindergaten. lol.
Why do you take these surveys?
dunno. just feel like it. haha.
Who do you really miss?
my family and friends!! =(
Besides your driver instructor, who taught you to drive?
self-taught! =] (go-kart -_-)
Do you wish you could be a kid again?
well, when i see how happy and cute the kids in my host family are... haha.
If you only had 100.00 in your wallet, what would you spend on?
clothes, accessories and make up. hehe.
Would you consider yourself sarcastic?
only when necessary.
Tell me about the best job you ever had?
never worked.
Do you lick your plate when you’ve finished eating?
used to xD
Who has disappointed you most in your life?
hmm. this is a rather complicated question. let's just say many people have, and so have i to them. other than that, i've also been disappointed with myself several times.
What is your favourite board game?
checkers and snakes and ladders! HAHA.
Do you get mad if you lose?
haha yeah.but only for a while.
Who is someone who can push your buttons the most?
'push your buttons' means turn you on right? or something along those lines? o_O
hahaha. i don't tell youuuuuu :p
Could you live without cheese?
i don't think so! though i'm mostly a junkie for chocolates. hahah. (and recently discovered, caramel frappucino from starbucks. you would too if your school is a 3 minute walk from starbucks x_x)
Who is the best cook you know?
grandmother! :D
If you could eliminate one word from the english vocabulary, what would it be?
unfairness.
Is there anything you think is over rated?
birthdays. definitely.
Are you at work right now?
well, i'm supposed to be studying but seeing that this is the last post till i'm free...
What is the last surprise you got?
someone saying this sweet thing to me.
--
sorry can't blog much/reply your tags/ or emails/tag your blogs/go on msn. been busy busy bussyyyy.
i just had three tests in a row last week. not to mention homework and the amount of revision i have to catch up with!
don't worry though, i have this one-week holiday called half-term in two weeks' time. i can't wait for it. i can catch up with my revision, go out with my friend who invited me to go to central london with her, and reply your emails and such.
okay until then =) hope to see you on msn soon. and don't worry, i will reply your tags eventually.i do read them.
twisting beside myself @7:38 PM
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