Tuesday, January 13, 2009
And finally, the results.
Someone whom i was on the phone with (kinda forgot who.. sorry) told me the results would come out on monday, 2pm.
So that would be monday, 6am here in london. I found myself conscious of the time. My brother called, saying he called my grandmother and got no news so far.
Since my school starts at 9am, i was in the bus at about 8.45am. Then i alighted at 8.55am, and got a phone call from my brother.
Him, sounding happy : Guess how much you got.
Me: What? Good? Bad?
Him: Guess.
Me, half screaming: TELL ME! *really expects him to say 8, because for some reason that number has been playing around in my mind for quite a while*
Him: Ten.
Me: Oh? Okay. *finds myself feeling nothing*
He then tells me what i scored for which subject, but i didn't really take notice.
Then i messaged my mum, dad, aishah, atifa, and called a couple of people when i was in school, messaged a couple more people when i was back at my host family's house, and got more calls from my family, who were over the moon for me.
But me? I had no feeling.
You can just tell me that breakfast is ready and i'll give you the same "oh, okay" reply.
I can't say i'm disappointed; judging from the way i slacked and slept as much as i wanted and only studied at the last minute, this is quite an achievement. But i can't say i'm happy either, i really hoped to get a single digit.
What's more, when you're one number away from a single digit. -_-
Well, here's the breakdown of what i scored for which subject, according to a message from my mum :
EL - A1
History- A2
Combined Humans - A2
Maths - A1
Add Math - A2
Chemistry - B3
Biology - A2
HML - B3
and thus the total of 10.
I'm particularly disappointed in my chemistry. I can't believe i slogged my arse off for that subject and got a B3, while i slacked in bio and didn't even study properly the day before, and got an A2. I just don't believe it.
And honestly, i thought i'd nail Add math and screw Emaths. I did okay for both, but it seems like the grades should have been swapped -_-
I'm quite surprised for english though.Hahahaha. Must have been the Bill compo xD Haha Bill Kaulitz, thanks for the inspiration xD
So overall, 6 As and 2 Bs. My whole family is happier than me. I'm just like, Meh. I have this white board in my house where all my books are. On it i wrote in huge handwriting "L1R5 AIM: LESS THAN OR EQUALS TO (the sign) 10"
So, i got the maximum aim for my L1R5. I suppose i don't feel anything because i'm neither disappointed or happy. Just, well. Meh-ed.
On a lighter note, though, my aunt who's very proud of me told me this is what i achieved despite my efforts being last minute, so there's a greater potential in me. Hmm, i hope so. -_-
I just hope cambridge, oxford or kings' college university bothers to look at this.
By the way, my parents left for singapore yesterday. My mother was crying and my father was tearing. It was quite sad. After they left for the airport and my mother said she'll call before the flight to singapore, i messaged her saying i was really tired and needed to sleep. But she still called me anyway because she "needed to hear my voice one more time" (she was practically choking on her words as she said that).
Now i'm really alone in london, except my host family, my few friends at school and my brother in croydon.
I just hope i lead my life better than i did in secondary school.
(Ps: Congratulations to all of you who have achieved what you wanted :D I still have to reply your tags (which i do read btw!), your emails, and tag your blogs, and everything else. Soon, i promise.)
twisting beside myself @4:19 AM