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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

sooooo. :)

i bunked school today. HEHE. (i don't know if that word is a proper word in the dictionary but the british kids use it to mean play truant) The best part is the reception person who answered my call believed i was ill!

i did not bunk for fun though, i really have to get my biology coursework done! I have only biology lessons from 9am-12.15pm today but i can cover those topics myself these weekends and besides, i still have three weeks more with my teacher before the exam so...yeah.

ahhhh. my exams are in may. for some stupid reason, i don't feel the pressure yet. only very subtlely.

speaking of exams though, i got back some results from my mock exams. maths was okay but chem was... uh o_O lol. 60% :S not horrible but certainly far from fantastic. but i'm not feeling that worried about it, considering i didn't revise properly at all.

and speaking of exams, can i just mention that, no offense, the students in my school are fucking pathetic? -_-

EVERYONE, and believe me when i say this, EVERYONE cheated.Or at least 98%. Except maybe me.(not trying to be self-righteous or something but you get the picture)

Though the mock exams were carried out in what was supposed to be 'exam conditions', all the students still had their bags in the room. Some people had cards in their hands, some whispered answers to each other during the exams (-_-),and some had formulas which they put in their transparent pencil cases facing them, some people were very obviously looking at each others' papers (lol one guy who sat between me and kutu who did that more that three times to both of us got told off and kicked out of the exam xD) ,and the rest guessed which past year paper was going to be tested and went to print off the answer scheme from the internet and studied from that. -_-

excuse me, no integrity please? I mean really, what's the point of getting good grades when you know it wasn't your effort, just your slyness that got you there?

And the worst part is, my friend mohani told me, the teachers know that the students are cheating, but don't want to do anything about it because apparently it's 'just a mock exam'. Um, what did they say about it being under 'exam conditions' again? -_-

And regarding something else... Well, about P. i'm feeling quite guilty now cos i can tell she trusts me but i'm just betraying her trust. like i said before, i don't do these things intentionally. I'm far from a perfect person, but i do try to be a good person to everyone. However when they do things to me that show how horrible they are (and many times not even aware about it) , i just don't know what to do. Because i don't think i deserve to be treated this way, like a broom.

I know friendship is all about accepting flaws, etc but it's.... more difficult with her. I don't really believe in herd mentality but many people don't like her, including M.And i find i can relate to M more than her anyway; with M it's easy to talk to, laugh with, share my problems with, and vice versa. I just can't do that with P.

Hmmm these things really get to me.

And i'm still recovering from heartbreak but i think... i sort of have the hots for someone now. Not that i'm going to do anything about it ; i don't want to be hurt that way again =)

thanks to R i don't trust boys at this age. i'm not generalising but from what i've realised, many of them are immature, insensitive, apathetic, and far from what you would consider a gentleman.

But then again that's maybe the boys in my school, not the whole world :) anyway my new motto in love is 'never fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you'. i got that from some random facebook bumper sticker i think.

well, it's off to HIV and treatments for it now! Good day to you all :)

twisting beside myself @4:28 PM

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