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Thursday, June 11, 2009

So.

Exams were over last friday. I feel like kicking myself in the ass for not learning from my Olevel mistakes, i.e, last-minute revision. Alevels is seriously not Olevels and i should realise that last-minute revision won't work D:

Not to mention how i felt nauseous almost everyday thanks to Red Bull, which many times ceased to keep me awake -_-

And i've also given up on trying to beat him ; it just shows i'm not over him when i am. And i don't care how many people are telling me i'm not over him because it doesn't matter if i am or not, i'll physch myself into it :)

So, as disappointed as i am with myself right now, i've learnt from my mistakes and hopefully i will study consistently next year and not make the same mistake yet again. I can't anyway, next year is the crucial year for getting into uni. (btw i just realised that if i get into uni i will only be 17 :O)

Heh.

What's very off-putting for next year is the fact that he's going to be there as well. Thank God all his iranian friends are going to be out of my school cos they're all in the higher level. Phew.

I just hope nicer people come to my college next year; From what my friend mohani and i have noticed, NOBODY is nice. The both of us can't wait to get the next year over and done with, lol.

I kinda hate the fact that my exams ended early. Firstly there's nothing much to do, and thanks to RETARDED tube strikes i can't go out with mo and praj ): will be going out this friday though, to some area called bromley.

And latest news is that i got my phone bill yesterday - a ridiculous £292.99 :) Mother was flippin' mad. Went to the phone shop today to sort it out and apparently i overshot my call minutes by about over 600 minutes and overshot my text messages by over 500. Pandai, i didn't even know my plan -_-

Another piece of good news is that my parents and younger brother are coming to london this sunday. YAYYYYY :D i feel like a boat that has found shore when i'm with the people who matter to me. Like all alone in london i'm drifting aimlessly but when there's someone you know close to you nearby you have someone else to rely on, give you support, care for you.... Which is why, lately, i've been thinking about how lonely i'll be if i have to stay in an apartment on my own when i go to uni. I don't like being alone, i need company. ): I'll go like, insane or something being alone.

And this is random but i plan to lose 15 kg by uni. -_- it's possible but difficulltttt. i <3 my chocolate D:

Oh well.

Anyway. I'M COMING BACK NEXT MONTH WOOOO AND I'LL BE STAYING TILL LIKE AUGUST COS MY NEXT YEAR STARTS IN SEPTEMBER! <3 SEE YOU ALL SOOOOON :D

twisting beside myself @1:53 AM

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